This year's has been bad and I feel just whacked out from the negative aspects but also the past few days have shown now that people do become more grateful at this Christmas, and next year things will be different for at least a little bit of time before coming to the safe part.
This Christmas starts off with recovering from a weird food poisoning incident 3 weeks ago while recovering from a cold or flue and I've never puked up so much in my life but that was 3 weeks. But what actually happens is to learn my nan had a stroke and was in end of life care, she passed away peacefully the morning of the 22nd December, 5 months and 1 week after my grandad passed, it's one of those moments where things show the true colours and quite frankly just has to remember the memories. That will be in the end of year blogpost.
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But christmas eve eve is where we begin
Christmas eve eve
It's been one of those waking up about 8:45 and for the events of the day before, I got a lift into work while parents had to clear belongings from the care home, which it's good it's out of the way but also tough to rush on that. But from there it was finally getting a PS5 setup to copy from my PS4, which it was nice to treat myself (self refurbished plus sent into a youtuber repairer from the post of march and that board) and that was going to take up must of the day, 22 hours it was originally going to take. Then it was working in 2 phone plus a quite for an iPad for next week and another phone, which the way it looks was going to mean the planned 2 weeks to cain accounts is not looking promising at all, but that and stock to book in, eventually it was a laptop to setup and then leaving at 17:10 before going to finally a visit to a old friend to help with his heating, the rain started to be a bit of pouring down but the street looked nide.
Then one more run back to the shop from 6:00 to check on the PS4 and setup remote play before the catching of the bus home which was packed and left 1 minute early too. Which means I got back near home by just over 6:30. On the way back was some deals with both a plant based chocolate bar from the food fridge and then £1.80 from Asda for onions, salsa and sandwich filler.
The pickup of food on the way home
I reflected as I walked up, the rain was starting to come up to start and it was just that end of a busy week reflections, with little messages to deal with and also still coming up to what might happen tomorrow. I got in and unloaded and had to check out with the pS5 to see if it was copying over. But then it was to continue on the end of the year review which I've cained typing the past month. But it was then a salad vase light for tea too.
The lunch
But the chatter was not that much, the day after tomorrow was on which has it's vibe of deja vu from years ago before the boxing day things. But at the end, dad has a cheers to both grandparents and may they rest in peace, it feels surreal in one way but also it has it's tolls of lifecycles. Then it was to get the feeling of typing up for the rest of the nice, with a few FNAF help wanted play throughs and also justice league on Netflix to finish off. I got to sleep about 2:15m with typing up on the sofa and crashing out in bed about then.
Christmas eve
So I had the 7:30am alarm kick in and swiped up then dozed off until 9am, my eyes awoke, checked hinge and wooplus, then got to the stage of going to just getup since I was wanting to plan out the Christmas message since the present video I can't do since mum wrapped my presents for me, I semi have a couple left to do which I can do tonight. I got up and toilet before listening to music and then it was 9:45am and time to get a shave going, but then it was nice to catch up with my sister since the plan was a visit to my dad's brother's place for most of the afternoon for buffet and family event style.
The selfie after changing and the shave
The shave was fine but I did cut my chin, so it was a now moment but eventually I semi calmed it down, but alas it was time to check the internet and luckily no emails, but after all that, we left for the family members while having to park up and wait for Sister and husband to follow us in due to the confusion of the roads to get there. The rain was the entire afternoon too but we eventually got in and gazed at a bigger room than when i went there 4 years ago. But chatter was there and the introductions before it was then about 20 minutes to wait until the food was cooked up or laid on the table, I had a nice orange juice since most other was cans or diet coke. But it was nice to load up the first check which was the mix of nuts as well with the homemade potato salad. The Seasons eggs were nice too.
The first part of the buffet in the afternoon
Then it was sitting and getting to listen in on all chatter from materials used in this place to some gossip about cars and also other bits, for the second partition , it was ending up sitting at the table to hear another side of the family chatter , which i got asked about the bike, some xbox and PS5 bits and then it was to wait a bit for the desserts, like the fruit salad was nice but the biscoff/coffee cake was the best part, especially when combined with nuts too.
Eventually things were finished and we then went around the sofa and then chatted all of us a bit more with some music being played, the plan was to explore the new build which shows the underfloor heating and is how the floors were made out, some nice little quirks at the very least. Then it leads to being able to check bits out and time to hear about the presents, the baby was getting to be asleep.
Some nice presents to be had and seeing some looks around it, the country music playing and the volume did end up making a bit of a ow for her. But the gifts for me were nice like a beanie, Bike lights and then even a cap plus money. Then it was more chatter and eventually it was time for some pictures of the family, by the tree. But then it was time to head off about the 4pm mark, since the rain was still there and we all said our goodbyes then drove off home.
The drive home was nice, some chatter and gossip side but it was a approach of generally things went quite nicely, but then it was time to get back in and walk Rosie, which was going to be how I got the Christmas message filmed. Which in itself was starting to get dark and the wind was picking up, but the message was sombre.
The bits and presents when i got home
The Selfie where i was going to film on the railway line
another selfie
The selfie under the moonlight
The mist and the moon in the light
But that message was sombre and reflected some of the points like:
Granparents passing away
The indictments with the past few months with boundaries
Gaza being in the crisis from the western countries and the association with Israel
Negativity in the world
But then it was time to deal Wirh coming home and that in itself was nice since my mums friend was just arriving there and chatting, but dome ham and bits were dropped of before it was time for a evening meal of some leftover bits. Which in itself makes it feel relaxing too.
The tea from Xmas eve, Pringle, crackers, potato salad, Honey glazed ham, Sausage Rolls and salad
Then to be fair it was time to relax while typing up the last bit of the blogpost for the end of the year, It was nice to have the chance to feel relaxed and bask in the warmth of the fire. But in the end it was nearing the end of the blogpost, it was watching the justice league and finishing that until about 1am, which means it was finally the 1st year of the review of the year complete.
Then it was a sleep from 2:20am until the 7am wish for Christmas Day.
Christmas Day:
So this was a bit of buzz, I got my alarm on the watch done for 7am and it buzzed but the sky was still dark but I laid in bed and then parents woke up about 8am to prepare for the time of the cooking of the turkey, which then it was to semi get things prepared up and help. I eventually work up at 9:45 after a long fap but did get a message from a popular crush too. But then it was to get changed into the Christmas jumper attire to try to sneak out to film but instead it was some chores to help out with. The first was to finish off the wrapping of the labels.
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Rosie and the Presents in the morning
That was done after kneeling to find where the labels were and the box was easy to find, the parcels put up and then it was time to get other bits done like some of the labels, but then it was more chore of some bits outside to take out, But in the end, the rain was too great to get time to film in that short period.
The mist
But then it was more chores and 11:20 or so am and it was time to walk Rosie in the rain, The chatter about bits was there which is fine but it leads to no time to film, but the lucky of the message filmed before was itself to help. A few cars passing by, but it was 20 minutes or more later and we finally got home, soaked in the drizzle.
Then it was time to edit the message and ger it up, with one attempt to get a bit of things done and it was nice to use glass again to prepare things, since it gives that first person footage vibe, but that message was finally up after having to be about 15 minutes later than when the Christmas lunch was sold.
But then it was uploading to YouTube and t was time to tuck I greeted everyone, which was just myself, parents, sister and her husband and their newborn, who was bouncing up and down on the walker or bouncer that mum purchased on Facebook marketplace. The turkey was nice with the mint sauce and cranberry sauce to add later on too, but the tucking in was nice and it felt good with the air-fried parsnips too.
The Roast for 2023. Roast Turkey, Brussel sprouts, bread onion sauce, Roast Parsnips and potatoes, Yorkshire puddings and gravy.
We tucked in while addams family was on and gives it a feeling of the taste, it was that nice turkey that was not too dry, the gravy was the typical bistro but turkey gravy was not the one used here. But we chomped and chatted which make it feel nice, but then it was time me and Sister had to help with the washing up since mum burnt her thumb while finishing the cooking off earlier. But washing was done gradually while having to pop out and check the videos being uploaded. But that time of dessert was to appear which was a Mint Vinetta along with a chocolate orange tiffin to go with my sisters warm brownies with sprinkles, which those are actually quite rich, which to be fair that bit filled me up more than the roast.
The chocolate desserts with the mint vinetta
By this point ice age was switched to and it was then soon to finish off the meals and it was then time to be ready to settle down in the lounge to pen and share presents. Which there was a vast range, the main ones were like socks and bike lights, since that was a theme this year on secret Santa, but it was a lot of emotional times to since it was technically the final present from nan, in both cash and stocking fillers Christmas wise. So this is really the end of an era, but another begins with mum and dad now being called nan and grandad.
Slipper socks
Lynx Bundles
Saddle Seats
More Slipper socks
A grinch cup
Some of the washes and fragrances
More presents handed out but it ended up being paused since of the King's speech which was a bit more clear and modest and very religious but more of all faiths which is good, but it will feel the world is in conflict shambles, After that, more presents and cards to undo, one of the emotional ones for mum was the special printer calendars my sister did with pics of nan and grandad which includes some of his artwork which did shed a tear in mums eye which rightly so as that is one bit of sentimental value coming up to be fair.
The Kings speech on the tv
The burger what i thought was the blanket at the time
A Design name faceplate thing that desks use
But more chatter later and it was eventually leading to passing the 4pm mark which for sister and their family, was time to head on to her own the of the family now. We helped load their car and then it was time to say our goodbyes and hugs. Then it weas all of us on the sofas to watch the rest of the Accountant, which itself dad really likes the film. In then end of that we finally had a bit of a leftover tea which itself felt nice.
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But then it was resting and typing this up while a few messages here and there, the sweating was starting to happen but also i found out the burger blanket was actually a Snuddie that Primark made and that was VERY warm and comfy. Which for the rest of the night I wore that, until i felt really hot.
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But alas it comes to the end of the night and when watching wild wild west, I got a message of a voice not on hinge at like near 1AM, turns out someone i matched with and did gift something, only go back to me 2 weeks later since her phone had broken and wanted food on XMAS DAY. Like there was some giggling from mates in the background, so it was looking like a prank, but Since shes Bristol based this might be something real in 24 to investigate. I then crashed out.
Boxing Day:
Well it was a final lie in of the year potentially, with work coming back to me in the day, but this was a way to get a bit of a head start to relax and take things a bit easier to finally start off the end of the trilogy of Christmas this year. But it starts to have a long lie in, almost collapsing when going to toilet around the 7am mark, and a bruised after a big fap over what happened last night. But i woke up about 10:45 after a fap. Then it was time to get some preparation done which included some of the post typed up and a nice turkey sandwich with onion and a brownie too.
The turkey, onion, brownie and ketchup sandwich
But then it was sorting out the chatter on the post before the changing was to commence which to then have a nice long walk up kit hill, which was a nice reflective walk with chatter about things and memories, one family lost their dog due to some shooting sounds down the valley, the wind eased off and the view was starting to release the haze from the sky a little bit.
The view from the middle of the hill
The selfie from the summit
But then we walked back down and more cars passing down, which actually was in the end a nice dry approach, we walked down and then it was time to drive home, which we took a diversion which itself was remanence of how quick that road is via car. But we got home and it was soon time to get a nice bit of leftovers part x sorted, which was from the onion and garlic dip to go with the ham and turkey.
The lunch of leftovers from air fried roast potatoes, ham, pringles BBQ, turkey, stuffing
But then it was sme more typing up for doing before the last hour of daylight or so, it was time to clean the bike and fit some of the bike lights gifted from earlier above, which the bike was going to have some extra bits sorted for going back and even managed to attach one of the lights to the back of the helmet. But then it was getting colder and dusk which then time to go inside and then relax which for me is just typing this up and making sure its all sorted. While that was happening Chitty chitty bang bang was on which was a nice reminder of the grandparents to remember his legacy from the times.
Chitty Chitty bang bang and blogpost typing
But shortly after this it was also a time of a WhatsApp message, now this is interesting since it was a contradiction from the Hinge Voice notes the night before which trend out her phone was broken but yet the WA message asked.
I found ur number on my phone, do you know me please
So that leads to a complication which means online dating with hinge has gotten further than I thought but at the same time it was no choice that it was actually just getting replied to when drunk. But that looks like 2024 will find the resolution of this.
But as the film finished and more TV shows to watch, it was time to get some dinner of more leftovers which was nice to enjoy, the ham was coming to its end which was nicer than the turkey, the potatoes were not the best taste anymore or I've had too many bits of the fluffy ones recently.
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But then it was to finally relax in the Snuddiee and type the rest of this up before having a rest before the final 3 days of work for the year and also potentially 2 weeks off, which isn't really time off of non work but more overdue accounting to sort out.
Right, this is where things get to a big event in anyone's life and trust me, Good might not come out of this and things might get said when said it not and things go out of hand. In this case, it caused things to be really scary and I regret going in the long run. There might be a vlog for this but it will be delayed since there is an NDA for some of the content of this wedding from what was said. But it led to making me realise how the busy times affect me and maybe my life has become out of control.
The night before:
It was another day of work on Thursday and with the expectation of this event, it was going to be demand to l jump up to the very late night before, and you know was actually going to be a last-minute PC repair which parts were needed for replacing from a week ago. Customer after customer came in and with even some repairs now turned away to make sure I get the time. But as things get rushed, I didn't leave the shop until 6:53pm. Then it was a rushed pelt to bishops mead. Then it was 2 visits to sort out from across each other. But that led to some brain-stressing ones and finishing at 20:50 ish. i made my way to Morrisons to get some Pickle mayo, and wham refreshers ide duos and their buts, We got it for exactly £5 then get £0.01 change.
The Branston Pickle Mayo, Alloli, And the Ice Duos
Then it was 9:15pm and the time to run to get the chance to come home. So the run was basically this time to get through their forest near Bere Alston, It started to be the case of running back on that road and as I was getting a bit tired but the rain was there in the forest. As I ran, my breath was covering the photo of the views from just near the shillamill tunnel.
The road and my breath make the fog
The Forest and the fog
But the run continued and it was heading on the road, a couple of cards passed by and then when on the farm lane, the rain was starting to be a bit heavier which in turn was meaning wet clothes on top. But then it was to get to the road and it was getting scary, blinding lights on sometimes both sides but luckily not at the same time. But It was soon Eventually I ran my way back and it was 10:30. So as knackered as I was it was I got back. Then it was to make a smoothie and a nice mix of pot noodles and tomato chilli couscous.
The late-night meal on Thursday
So it comes down to then having to sort out a video, Since I managed to sort out the meal eaten, I got ready and then caught up on some admin. This led to getting a Can of Gfuel Pewdipie and it was nice since on Wednesday the intern gave me a sip of the sour cherry he wanted me to drop to his on Wednesday along with the keys so the shop was covered for the weekend. But this led to an all -nightery for finishing the vlog from Good Friday.
But then that was to be rendered between 6am and 7am, since it was around 3am in the morning I managed to sort out setting up a review for a Power bank that can charge the Laptop. But it was quite flat so that was needing to be charged up.
The Power Bank
Charging the Power Bank
But then it was a mini fap and making sure I was not too phased out since of the preparation, in all fairness a glass of the Rainbow Sherbet and also the can of pewdipie was all I needed to do the All-nighter which was better than the New Year's Eve Video editing.
So then it leads to dealing with Finley who wanted to come in at the 6am mark and then Mum was up at the 7am mark since she had to go for the makeup about 4 to 5 hours earlier. But then it's the morning.
The Day of the Wedding
The Morning Preparation
So still awake and nervous about what could happen worst case. So we begin to the stark contrast of making sure things go smoothly, for me it was charging the laptop up while it was uploading and also the library to be copied to the USB drive to then copy it to the desktop PC for editing later on, well especially macOS is now running on both machines easily, makes it better to do the editing like the good Friday run home vlog was about.
The Charging via the Powerbank
But it was then going to be the case of Mum was ready to go by 7:45 am and I was than to eat a nice toasted ham Brantonaise sandwich and also a strawberry doughnut. While the clip was uploading.
The Ham Branstonaise Garlic Alloli Toasted Sandwich
Then it was the start of copying the library to the PC and that let me manage to get things kicked in, so it was to get some emails sorted out in case people decide to call. But then it was nearing 9 am and time we decided to walk the dog. I and Dad were in loose clothes and it was to get Rosie walked since she was going to be on her own for the few hours ahead. But it was starting to clear up on the weather.
Rosie waiting to wait for the path to carry on
But then I got back about the 10 am mark and it was actually a call to sort out which then was to get changed and also keep an eye on the CCTV to see how work was going, But then it was time to get the suit on, with the cufflinks on and also the chance with the other side of things, plus emailing people to let know what was going to happen. Then it was going to the changing to finish off and then time to get in the car for the suit, the weather was getting sunny.
A Selfie in the Suit
Glass in the car
The Wedding:
The Journey and Preparation
So the weather was really getting better and the sun appeared, my legs were shaking at the non-stop mark, and I started to breath heavy and also the vibe of how things were going to go which really did not make things any easier. Sure it was positive and Dad was seeming chirpy about this all. But it was soon there, about 11:45 we got there.
As we parked in the resort car park, which was the other side where I parked the bike for dropping off clothes for the plane in case things were going to be too much for me. So about the 12 mark, we got out of the car and I lifted the Ninja out of the golden-wrapped box.
We ended up turning right at the reception and then going towards the bedrooms, But then we ended up going down the golfer's bar, But that was not the right one and I was starting to feel a bit numb, so we walked to reception and dad had to hold it. But then as we got there, mum with her curled her hair and then she nagged me for shaking but then we were told to hang about and I was nerved out. This was after the dropping off of the presents in the room the reception was going to be.
The Reception
then it was the key to how things were and Man I was going to be scared. But I was off to get a drink which was a glass of water to calm the nerves, But I was actually really getting to the point I could not even speak, like it was a very part of how things are scary and I was not going to be prepared for this. But Then I walked to the bar and had to write it down, So the glass of water was ordered and I Shook as I gulped it down, but then it was the chance to walk outside for some of the fresh air as more guests arrived. Outside the reception, I was greeted by the groom and he said that He was not nervous about spending the rest of his life with my sister which is a fair comment but also said just wish I could get over this day, I can relate but not the former.
It was greeting people like grandparents and it was also the wind was getting a bit gusty. But I had to argue with myself on how this had nothing to do with me but at the same time, I was also scared of what this means in the future. I reflected on this while out in the wind between 12:30 and 1pm.
The reflection and sky out
So it was the last few minutes before the ceremony was going to happen and I walked my way back to the reception, I was scared and also had to then ask Dad to let me have the keys to go back to the car to pick up the tripod. I got to the car to pick it up and was very tempted to just stay in the car, but I forced myself to get it and go back. Since it was only moments away from the start of a big realisation for my life in a very small way.
The Ceremony
So It was time for me to get this done, I was also approached to put the flower on the suit but I shook my head when asked and turns out this was the rep spoken to in the email and she reminded me that the clothes were behind the reception. But Then the room was ready with the Postmaster mentioning it. But then it was time to go in there, the chairs were laid out nicely and the sun on the views was showing in, the only thing would be the column in the way.
The Guests sitting down
So I positioned myself at the back, tripod at the ready and phone and Glass ready to go and this in turn was me to just be silent, sure my knees were starting to ache. But it was soon time for the Groom to go out and stand to wait for my sister to pop in.
The waiting
The time on the screen shows the wait that is happening
So then the music started playing and my sister walked in the door, with my hand holding her hand as they walked in, which in her white dress and would not know she was pregnant. But then it was time for this to happen and the service started.
The ceremony was the explanation about Marriage and love which was actually like a lecturer, with the way that Vows can be repeated in different ways and also about the except of what love is and actually, it was not as much or at all related to the Lord and Savour. So it was the vows which were traditional thick and thin of it all, so to cherish the good and bad and to love as a whole etc. Both said I do and some accidental slips of worse while repeating, but it was all in all, a peaceful and focused silence while this was done, ok one of the babies of my sister's mates was crying but that cannot be helped.
But it was eventually time those words were spoken and I felt a bit of a tear in my eye as it was heard, so the words were spoken of Mr and Mrs and then it was the legal witness signing from both families, Ed Shereen or was it another song which reminded me from one of the Twilight films kicked into play. Either way, it was a happy feeling for most of the crowd but also not as exciting part, a calm presence. Then it was the walking out with both and others followed.
I was starting to pack up and I was feeling a bit sick, knowing what was about to sink in some words that in a way make no fucking sense to me but in other ways, it was then me trying to get to the door.
I Froze, so the crowd was around the sister which is fair and completely whelming with the celebration of that simple fact of what just happened. But My legs were like jelly and it was then needing me to rush to the toilet after a bit of fresh air and reflect in the wind on what happened. But then It was that toilet rush, which I thought originally was locked but turned out was just a heavy door. I had to then go into the cubicle and freeze. This was me stuck in here for the next half hour at the very least.
My mind rushed and I say what sounds stupid but just hurts
I just lost my sister in a name wise, I'm now an only child in name
That just kept going through my head and also made me wish I could have had someone with me as Plus one, especially with the looking of it, I was the only single person/male there under 50, so the rest were married or in relationships, that was just making things worse and I had no clue on what this was indicating which later on would be. But then Dad shouted where are you and I said I'll be out, but then was not too long until Mum shouted for me to come out in 10 minutes or being dragged out, I was really shaking and to be fair the temptation to get the clothes and change was on and off most of the afternoon. But in the end, it was me having to come out, still trembling as I walked to go out, was in no way fucking prepared to have the confidence to speak to my sister let alone others in there. But then Mum moved me along to a seat overlooking the pool and got me a glass of water.
She asked why am I feeling this way and also that if I leave you'll ruin her big day, even though I've not even made direct eye contact with her let alone spoken to her with that message in my head being argued upon. But Mum left me to drink and I was still trembling and debating whether to leave or not. Since the part of this was to be the case of the drinks and quick break while the start of the reception was going
A Shakey/ grouped intermission
So this was the case of the main ceremony out of the way, I was shaking as well as my glass of ice cold water but it was going to then make the chance to get up and finally go into the room. My Sister was not there but others were, So I walk my way to the edge of the bar and my dad got me an Orange juice, which these events, those drinks are not going to go very well. But AS I drank it, the bro of the groom approached me and we chatted about some things.
Work
Chat GPT and other Open AI
Windows 11 + Android
Being an uncle
Gfuel cans
My nerves were semi-eased but it was not for long since the weather was getting that bit of clear sky even with that strong galeforce winds. There was a fair bit of groups around, which for me was a chance to check my phone and check the CCTV while it was So this was when the chance for photos to be taken and I avoided that. Since it was nearly 3:30 and the time for the reception was coming up. But it was then time to get into the reception. Which was another time for the toilet on the guess to get there or to bail and leave. But I walked in shaking.
The Reception:
So this was going to be the maybe mellow part, but as I got in there, It was going to be the case of everyone walking in and soon with being behind or the tablets in front of them with the bridesmaid and groom and mum, dad, friends of fufu and well best man style. But My name was there, with grandparents and my grandad's brother's former ex-wife too. But my tummy was not feeling right which means the food will be skipped, my leg did not stop shaking for most of it and I was worried it will affect the video of the speeches to film.
The place card for the tablet I got sat on
So this comes to the stage of hearing the speeches, which then leads to the chance of hearing some opinions I've never heard. Such as the chance to be taken down the aisle with hand in, Also the announcement of the kid along the way.
But then it comes to the case of hearing the Grooms Speech, which to be fair was a heartfelt one, it had its generic tone ins parts of what was repeated but it was the case of also being thanked for being involved in which to be fair the filming was the only involvement and that was just the purchase of Glass and also FCPX which was due to the upgrade of MacOS for it.
Then it comes to the best Man's speech and the references to the sweaty Fifa goals, (RIP FIFA when EA Sports FC will come in and work's EA rep will talk on it) and the time of how
this came to pass. but for some, it was coming to pass on that. We call clapped and then it was time to get to wait for food. This was me shaking and more shaking to go. But then it was me feeling a bit of a tummy feeling, like butterflies but a much nastier feeling. So the soup was skipped and then the lady next to me was doing small talk. So my nan was hardly eating anything and this in turn could be a bad time for her in the long run of this.
The Table in glass
But it then lead to the waiting for the chicken, which was actually one of those posh ones with no sides like vegetables but it was the little bone sticking out of it. It had a tangy gravy but an onion or chive-style mash which I'll have to imitate for cooking eventually. But the taste was good and not too intense for the tummy.
The Chicken with Carrot, gravy, Chive mash and Runner beans
So that was nicely eaten and it was a unique charm to it and to be fair, it really did fill the gap, although I was regretting missing the soup, that orange juice and nerves got the better of me. But then it was to the desert which the waitresses were coming out with them, but I had to send mine back due to the custard on it, since again I did not really have a choice for the menu since I was scared to sort that out months ago. So everyone started to tuck into the desert which meant that last-one-to-eat mentality and some chatter with the staff about picky is what I felt a bit of a vibe of. But then it was a sponge which was ok but felt a semi-bit like a bigger version of a microwaved one. But It was eaten pretty quickly.
The sponge for dessert
Then it was more nervous and it was also the time the friends of Dad's across from me were not feeling well either and ended up being taken outside then she puked up, they were late and even run Dad as he walked my sister to the aisle as well. But that was soon to be out of the way and it was also time for grandparents were going to be picked up. So I also walked out of the hotel and made it to get some fresh air. But then as I came back my dad passed and asked what I was doing and then I said I'll make my way back then he said that mum was dropping off grandparents to the van outside. So it was time to leave, it was nearing 6:30pm and since parents were staying over, it was fine for them but with the gap between the Reception then the evening ceremony, it was going to be the tough part to either risk stress or that one mistake from having to drink or even shed a tear from seeing the first dance which I'll talk below on down.
The time to go.
So it was then time to wait for the wheelchair and walker with both grandparents on it, then with the help of a chap local to where I live now for £70, it was time to get them strapped in for Na's in the wheelchair and grandad in the front. But then both strapped in and my time to take a seat in the back, which then I had to get out for a short minute bit and said goodbye to my sister and the family, then it was a smooth drive back, over the hill and on the main road, but then it was listening to the chatter the driver and my grandad was he was talking about me to him (he did not realize I was behind them in the backseat) and also about when my sister was in pantomimes and village plays a year of many time ago.
As we passed an accident and up the hill, since a car and bike collided on it, but then it was soon time to get out since the chap dropped me at the school,, which in the blue sky, I got out after a car zoomed by, then leading to walk home, just up a road, which that reflecting was to start on what happened today.
I got home and greeted Rosie, which was then a quick toilet break before getting both the cat and Rosie outside, which the walk started and I ranted to myself about what was to come. As I kept talking, I was starting to slowly lose sight of how things are, and eventually, As I got to the field,, I sort of had an argument with myself that brought up some painful memories which were of a crush with the same name as sister and her now husband from years ago still that what memory could have been]
Things were feeling out of control and real mistakes were happening this was the weekend I let it take over my life, But the wind was evening picking up from that side So after breaking down, it was time to head home at about 7:30pm mark.
Things get too much but the walking in the evening was nice
So I walked back and then it was time to just relax by watching some cartoons and also watching some Disney + with some leftover pot noodle couscous with the pickle mayo. But it was then typing up the post, I was feeling drained. So crashed out at 00:30 and then it was time to catch up with sleep since it was exhausting and my mind felt like it was lost it was going to be the end of simple things and another lesson of having to move on since life needs those lessons to sort out. Plus it was getting time I have to sort out a therapist since the shakes were coming in thick and fast on a daily basis. Soon that will be sorting its time out.
Saturday:
So I was still emotionally drained and to the point, I could not fully wake up until about 11:30am, my mind was scared and it was making me feel empty. But time takes its toll and it was time to walk Rosie. I got a phone call from Mum she said she was dropping flowers off which in itself was going to be a recovery and the stress they had with a fire in the hotel due to some towels that caught alight after being in the tumble. But then I walked Rosie, she was happy but at the same time, I was still scared.
I had to play at the bottom part of the playpark since there was an easter egg hunt to deal with, So the main field was mostly off limit
Now on the way back, 3 sausage-looking dogs were running on the road since they were let out and started barking at Rosie I had to pick her up and the dogs started to jump up at me and then Rosie was snarling and close to biting my face. The lady apologised and said she did not know the dogs were let out. So we eventually rushed out and then I got back to make lunch before my parents got home about 10 minutes later.
Once they got back and we greeted and chatted, It was time to drive to both grandparents of my dad's side's graves, one was having to top the water up for the flowers on the grave and then it was time to go to Calstock for the Grandad's fiance's grave to top the flowers up. This was the first time to see the grave since she died the day after I saw her in August 2020. So then it was time to go to the carpark in Calstock which was fully packed but we got out and walked our way to Cotehele, which was quite busy on the path and pretty dry on it. But we then pass some of the gardens and the signs of spring were going were showing for sure.
The gardens
As I walked down, a girl from the midlands I've been speaking to was wondering how the vouchers worked from nearly 2 weeks ago, she was happy and then it was to sit by the quay and talk about the wedding again with my parents. The ice cream was a Lemon swirl and Chocolate and it was a nice mix. But I'll try to have sorbets more instead now.
The Double cone ice creams
Then it was more reflecting before the walk in the sun home, when the sky was still blue, and the spring was warm, but it was then time to get back to the car. Since it was to reflect on this day and the vibe was still warm for the family of the wedding the day before. But we then got back and it was time to drive home, the social club was packed and the pub was still packed pretty much.
Then we got home and it was time to sit outside with more chats in the sun as well as the parts of the leftover wedding cake. Which was nice but rich, the icing was very nice too. I had more slices from this day on than I should but for a bottom-tier (not quality-wise) cake, it was just mmm.
The slice of chocolate wedding cake
So this comes to the point of trying to get this typed up, I'll be honest and say this takes a lot of time more to do than it seems but it was also the case of the well that was pretty much the last 2 days off I'll have not Mondays and Sundays for a fair while. But it was a nice curry made for the tea using some Chicken prawn noodles.
The chicken prawn noodles in a curry with extra rice, crisps and mayo
Well, that, for now, will be it, this was then to chat and type this up, the next days were going to be tough choices to hear about and a post I'll catch up about the April. But as some people have new beginnings, things of the past are starting to come to an end and I'm starting to remember this quite badly or really learn this rule of unwritten tales of life.
But for now, take care, my future can get worse but it will start to jump up eventually.
