An Anxious Start to 2022

 Already things feel like 2022 is going off to a bad start and this also leads to maybe the resolutions being different to see if there have been a good chance of completing some of them since I know that has not been the case but at least I tried. But this goes over the next 3 days before the first week which is supposed "supposed" to be a week but what will happen I do not know. but this then leads to more of things I do not know. Especially now things are feeling back to before 2019 in some ways and 2021 in others. 

But there is no music  video from 2021, things came at me 2 fast and to be honest , it was like the last hour of the year with Both the parts of the review of the year have been uploaded. 

New Years Day: 

So it was the final minutes of 2021, and I had to finish uploading some of the pics from before christmas due to not uploading pics from the 23rd and being delayed on that due to trying to rush up the posts and then post the new years and it was one comment I might of said that had my dad tell me to "go fuckmyself then mate" when i was edgy and he asked me who i was texting when I said "I don't trust you", he then went off and we watched the LED display on BBC one. 

The Big Ben for it 

Now from this fallout it put me even more on nerves since with the next few days and what could transpire it felt like this was going to make it worse and texting someone to say happy new year is important even though no reply. But this was also the tense moment of that while deciding if i have the energy to get the music video editing, which I did not in the end. This maybe was a mistake and maybe it was a case to then text another friend and we chatted about things and well, the truth was told and she did give some advice which later on I would end up knowing I've got to do.  

Eventually I woke up with the alarm at 8am which made it a bit easier and stress was still on my mind and then trying to chat in FF and it just feel the same as years of chasing people that maybe do not exist, and well i ended up doing something I will end up maybe saying is the first regret of the year. Signing back up to Feabie. Now there was actually a complication which Still keeps me in a better chance of not regretting but that was to be getting the phone number verified and well, there was no text that got sent, even hours later it did not arrive, and it was not just on one number but another. So that means maybe I will have to ignore that. 

Then I got up and it was time to have a bit of breakfast of a nice toasted chroizo and chocco nusaa sandwich which is to keep me energy going, as well  as getting the chance to upgrade my steambox to have 8GB of ram from a discount i gave a customer for fitting a motherboard to a new case in exchange for that stick. Then it was a walk with mum in the field for how things are and we talked about dad and last night and i think he's concerned about me still being able to survive on the single jab and it made me even more nerves for what was about to happen later on.

The Stick of Vengeance ram

The Chocco nussa and Chorizo sandwich 

But this is when things get tense as I import some footage to the macos side of things,  and then a call comes out regarding neighbours of grandparents and then it was a massive argument about them coming with me to get the jab and especially as I panicked from being in the GP in less than 3 days ago and also the chance that Home Park is not offering it for the Tuesday, it means it might have to be that pharmacy nearby i booked, I mean why the FUCK can't  this be offered in a PHARMACY which is less than 5 MILES away which there are some JABS being done in RESTAURANTS for convenience. But this makes me shakey for most of the day and even when texting after this and was also the change of me to finally get changed to then go and see grandparents which I finally emailed the NHS contact i was last with back in August to book this to finally sort out the penis and well it has lead to other anxieties starting to grow on me for this side. 

 

But with that Email sent with a lot of spelling mistakes, it was the time to go to nans and I was still shaking from earlier. it was not going to go away and still lingers for the rest of the day, but we get there and unload the roast before it was chatting and time to get it dished up. It was a nice roast turkey with some bacon wrapping and the potatoes as well. I was a bit less on edge while eating this.

This year is looking like a stressful start and anxiety is going through the roof. Keeping focus is going to be tough

— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) January 1, 2022

The food in the towels while being wrapped up 

The Roast turkey with the extras  as well 

Then it was time to do some chores and get things like the plates cleaned, the bird table was filled up with bread while dad building another bird feeder and then it was then time to clean the windows which had seagul poo at various parts, but eventually it was time to get the Portal re-checked which for some reasons did not mention as to why it did not work out. But with a few calls later, it was sorted and ready to work but his number was not in service either.  But eventually we got home , the  shakes were kicking in a tiny bit and as we walked Rosie, only just to the railway line. But  then it makes 

my time to realise things were going to be worse and more rough. But with that doe, it was time to relax and type this up while worrying about the next week at least. But it was some nice leftovers such as chicken pie with nachos and even some chorizo too. 

Some of the leftovers for the tea on new year

But then it was taking my mind off things, still waiting for a text to get a code and also typing this post up while watching TV with parents, as well as the typing up of this post while watching FNAF videos, and sometimes it is a fucked up horror affair for it. 

Typing the posts up and watching videos and TV at the same time 

It was only 2 days left until things were going to fel scary but it will be the first night I did not have to rush to type things up and did not have to do things overnight, that will be back to normal next week ocne feeling better maybe. But then it was on to another day.

The second of Jan:

Well this was a long night, from chatting  until about 1am online to sonome with a 32x cup apparently and crashing out from 2:37 after finally turning an old phone odd. to then wake up and try to fap until 10:30 am it was feeling of whether things felt real or would ever happen and it just delays how long I last for or if i just give up and wake up, Now  this I do know its carrying on from last year but more so now that ties have been split from something special that was shared, but alas moving on is going to be hard, but in this luck, we all woke up late so that did not cause any rush or disaster, but this meant having to have a late breakfast of another smoothie as well as a plain old chooco nussa toasted sandwich, no meat this time. Plug being tagged in a bitchy group about PS4 repairs means someone is not going to listen and that means more stress for this week. Plus it was also a chance to have a 

The Fruit smoothie for the morning

Then it was a suggestion that mum wanted a bath in the morning, and with my anxiety still kicking in, it was time to just take it easy with things, so we did, especially as the rain was pouring down and make the things just less chance to deal with the outside world right now since It was going to be scary and even at various points today, it felt like it could go at a wrong turn .But then I was time to get a walk with Rosie sorted and was going to vlog but the rain and the wind was coming up, so not ideal to get it done, and realizing that not many of the resolutions from 2021 are completely failed in most cases. Maybe this is still me having to mull it over to find the next plan out. 

Eventually I got back about 11:30 and it was time to finally have the bath and maybe question on what the next plans would be for this year and I'm still nervy about it, I still have a few days left to think on this. But one hour or more later, I was out of the bath to the get some of the toenails clipped or cut for a small part to make sure they do not dig in for the next day of work on the Bank Holiday monday. But then it was more waiting for a text from feabie but no change and then debating to try out bumble to see iif that was going to work around but I think its not right just yet, but then it was time to have some chicken noodle soup for lunch. 

The soup and the extra

Then it was soon time to get changed to go for a shop for bits in Tesco and Lidl, this was a nice shop from some bits, the vlogging kits were still there, but other parts were there, even a 50" TV, But then it was to go to tesco  to get some more bits which were like a bowl, some snacks and even struggling to fine what rum looks like to then put in the mix with lime and mint cordial from robinsons. But then it was time to go home about the 4pm mark as places were going to close. #

We got home then unpacked and it was time to relax and typing up this blogpost which then it was time to have tea while edward scissorhands is on TV, very corny for a 1950s aesthetic tale, but the hoisin duck with the pancake wraps as well as the beef brisket works really well. The potato sticks from tesco is not as good as the ones from lidl since of the sour cream and chive. 

The wraps as well as the sticks and the salad 

But then it was time to relax and finish off some FNAF watching while watching big on TV too, plus gets to the point of hoping for something to change or maybe things to be less worrying, but it does make it  preparing for what was to come. But then it was to hopefully see and tweet the pics from the things before going back to work, I did try to charge the bike battery and found out the Back brad Pads have worn so it mans it will be harder to go down hills without crashing. 

The 3rd January: 

So after fapping and sleeping until this morning at around the 9am mark. then getting up at 9:15am to then get changed and ready for work by 9:30, since I was to have 4 visits, my nerves were kicking in a bit for what was to come today and it does not help when the bike's battery was not charging, But then I was off and on to my route. First it was to get to Ottery to sort out a car charger, then greeting a brother for the customer and then it was on my way to the next route. 

That was to another regular and learning on MS accounts, USB Drives and even 2FA/2FV then it was time to carry on, my nerves were starting to kick in a bit more for the next day ahead, but they said I would be ok with the PFizer vaccine so maybe it is the case. But then a customer text me and it was the next visit to be sorted, like seriously back to more visits, it was more to plan out and well little did i Know it was going to be another 4 left, I thought it would have been 2. 

Eventually I got to the next one in the middle of tavistock, and that was on a basis of the kindle to check on the books. So it was nearing 1:30 and time to cycle to work, I did pop by the GP and then got asked about if the pharmacy was open  and it was not. So I decided to carry on to go to the shop to get some things up. Such as well the  chance to finally get to sign up for feabie and, I have this feeling I did finally start to repeat  of chasing people that would either not exist or just stand me up for reasons beyond control or something like an excuse, but that I'll have to gamble with and see what happens. But  well It did work and I was online. But this is where checking things and guessing I was going to repeat the past. Plus the Sign was battered when left outside.

The scratch at the top in just 2 days of leaving it there. 

Eventually after that and some Stock paying in. HMRC paid and also some supplier Bills paid, it was time to eventually leave and get some bits in the rucksack since it was the last time to be in there hopefully this week then heading out to sort out the final what was supposed to be 2 visits, but leading to 3 visits. Even with the Bike battery still cutting out, but then a nice warm hour or so past and it was time to hed back to the last 2 visits, But as I cycled and still be cold and nervous, I was shocked to find the battery slammed out onto the road and Then I stopped and fitted it back to then cycle to the next route. 

Tben it was a few minutes later and I was going to the next visit, So that caused me to sort out some Chromecast issues but most of them were sorted in the end. Then it was fresh out  to the final visit, I'm still shaking and then after getting a slam out of the bike battery stopping. I got to the last customer's in the dark and got some of the iPad organised. Eventually it was nearling 8pm and 6 visits done. 

I got home, shaking even more and then time to talk to family and they were asking about plans tomorow on how or where they would be taking me for the second jab, since Home park was closed of all days for the Tuesday and Also mum "I know you have anxiety but you have to get it done" and it just feels a bit crippling and then it was time to have some leftover casserole for dinner. With honey puffs for that sweeter taste and horseradish just goes through my nose really. 

The Ham with casserole and kale with the extras 

But then it was browsing sites and also still having to do work like source triple monitor setups for a laptop and also then to watch some LTT video on some case. But then it was time for a bath and I got out by about the 22:25 mark which I was shaking, not from the cold as much as the temperate was lower, but it was the challenges of what could happen from tomorrow and what my feelings and emotions are going to freeze since my dad is not the best at understanding feelings of most people which explains why maybe sometimes I do not get on eye to eye or mention things like not trusting him, But then it was finishing off the show of Stay Close and the ending is that twist of the manager being the killer. 

But then it was gong to bed and finishing this to be typed up before the big day, With the plans to get a vlog sorted as well as the chance to think of some of the goals from the reflection of the first week of 2022 being an anxious mess that knows the bad stress of memories might come back. I really don't know, even if it is chatting to potential fakes on FF and no messages as of yet on Feabie. 

The 4th day  - Vaccination

So, we struggle to get up from the alarm going off until  10:15am, I was shaking a little in bed and even with a phone calls even while trying to fap to de-stress but this feeling of worry was really on, I managed to get out of bed but still shaking and then to get changed and walk the dog, Which I could hear the wind from the bedroom, But then it was time to walk her, I was shaking to still try to get changed and then get her out for some playing ball on the field. And even as I was walking, I was still shaking and feeling like things are going to be the tough choices to make in the future and how even this will feel. 

Rosie while walking 

Then It was more chaos as the wind was going up, the time  was to panic was not yet but Edge was about the word, it did not help with the strong wind and the fact rosie was deciding to do what she wanted and run away with the ball. But it was the end of the walk since it was nearing 11am. Especially as this other dog decided to sniff and Rosie was not happy, so it was on the lead. Especially as the postman was around the corner was the postman. 

But then it was checking E-mails and even having a voicemail already to deal with but those will be for tomorrow, since my legs were shaking more and eventually mum arrived from work and I had to wobble my legs to get to the car, feeling numb and looking down  and i could not stop shaking the entire drive to mutley aka Hyde Park.

Trembling in the morning and even shaking as I walk and type this, things are not looking good today. Then again 5 months between jabs should be safer ...

— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) January 4, 2022

But then it was time to get out of the car and there was me struggling to walk to the door, and there was like a queue and actually a rep came out shouting anyone for the covid vaccine and I froze, but mum shouted that we were but I was really struggling to walk in there and nearly fell. But then I was walked into a room and then just about to panic but I sat down and still shaking and mum was shouting at me to calm down and then it a bt f a struggle to get the jumper off before  she did get the jab in on my right arm (aka left if facing me, right if looking at it. But then it was done and i'm still shaking and nearly fell out of the door and then made my way to the car and then it was a drive back home, well almost. 

Jab is done but still shaking the entire way back and even as I'm home

— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) January 4, 2022

We then had to drop mum back but I was still shaking for most of the way home  and then we go to the pasty house while mum got some pasties and dropped off them, But I got a whatsapp which did make me have to focus on it and think over what to say especially While still feeling shakey. But then dad came back in and we drove home. 

From that I was still a bit uneasy and then checked the laptop and it was  time to remember Emails to reply to and still more voicemails that I have to, but eventually I had to sort out the pasty i was given for lunch and something else easy going like a chicken stock tomato soup and adding the pasta in that too. 

The lunch

As I was eating this slowly and took longer than usual since i still felt uneasy and also using water to help detox me in this feeling of making sure I don't trigger off any ills and even while washing this up later on I was feeling that little bit more shit or on edge. 

Then it was to relax and just start to type this up but even that was tricky when calls from work and e-mails was appearing so it was going to build up a backlog for the end of the week or when I have the energy to finally deal with it, I mean if It gets that fucking Bad, I'll have to work all weekend to catchup due to this demand. Especially while browsing feabie and it brings memories of some time wasters and those that you question if its going to be just a stand up or stood up again, Not missing that reality for the past 2 years almost is a good thing, (well 1 year 11 months), and maybe that is another part of the anxiety. 

But later on after it was another dogwalk and it made me almost cry since of what the future becomes but then the wind was coming back and it was time to carry on with the fire I put on from earlier and then it was time to type this up while watching videos. But eventually it was time to carry on and it was a nice chance to have some Paella as well as chups and it worked nicely in a wrap. 

But then that was mostly the end of the day, it was time to chill out, watching films and typing up and still wondering on the choices i've got to make for the resolutions this week. Plus a video needs to be done and even online work too. 

And then it the final day covered on this post since things do have to end somewhere, but it will be a re-cap of the Goals from 2021 and 2022 to be set. 

Wednesday the 5th. 

So waking up and fapping until 10am mark and it was then preparing for a phone appointment for remote access on that side of thing, which I had to setup things with lubuntu but that was sorted and then after a few e-mails to sort with some work gfuel like it was getting something useful with the LPG team. This was just after having a nice small bit of cookie and a vitamin c to boot. 

The Cookie Sandwich and the vitamin c drink 

But then it was time to walk the dog and it was getting a  chance to film the video for the catchup and well, it was ok but it felt a bit rant in that side of thing, it did not feel constructed properly, like not scripted. But the that worked for a selfie in that regard, well the hat did.

Rosie in the background 

Then filming that just didn't feel right and then so it was time to go home and maybe film cooking lunch after that so no change there. This time it was get the fod done and it was a nice omelette with some 5 spice as well as the curiously cinnamon as well. 

The omelette with ritz crackers

But then it was deciding what to do and actually I have to now decided to get the bike cleaned, since it was overdue and well the time to get things arranged for next week, since visits were booked already. 

But that bike was cleaned after a nice tub of hot water in a bucket and some car shampoo, but that helped with scrubbing things down like the mud off. But then it was nearly 1 hour later and 3pm and finally time to get packed away and it was clean. 

The Back of the bike before

another look 

After the back of the bike has been cleaned 

The front was clean too 

So then it was time to get rosie out and then it was good to take a small tripod and then walk to the same spot I did come back from earlier on and this means to get it filmed, but it worked nicely, except it was the plan to see how it goes with finally saying the new year resolutions. Now Rosie was barking for the ball to be thrown so it was walking back and forth while filming, but it was nice to finally talk without holding the phone out, I know i should have brought the bigger tripod but no change on my prepwork there. 

Then it was time to go home and then 4pm passed and was getting clear sky, an very cold and it felt nice but also it was going to be soon that Dad was coming home. But it was then to just relax and check things on feabie before time to go and get some chores and it was also nice bits of battered and tgi fridays chicken for tea. Lie the battered chicken balls were meh but the other chicken was very rich and tender. 

The chicken balls, the chicken bits and the cous cous 

Then it was time to watch TV with parents, chat to my sister whom came over around 9:30 and some prison show was on but she was talking and busy working but came back from spoons. But it was also good to type this up and well tomorrow the video will probably be. 

The Resolutions:

Well now 2021 is over and ended off to a bad year and well its the chance to finally see if things do maybe work out for the future, but we do have to recap the chances to find what could work. And its time to have a final re-cap and put it to sleep for the past. 

The 2021 Resolutions: 

• Stream more -Failed, like only streamed 3 times if any  - FAIL 
• Catch up with the  accounts in work - I caught up to October and it then stopped - SUCCESS
• Be able to hug someone non work or family related - Did not happen - FAIL 
• Complete at least 2 games in a story mode  - Did not happen - FAIL 
• Do more Day out vlogs  - only 1  - FAIL 
• Schedule/plan out days more -  I sort of got some days planned and did write a list of some, I think FAIL

So that shows that and with Gaming, it was a waste of time, but especially with running a game store, sometimes the playing gets delayed in that side of things.

But now it comes to plan out the new ones. 

The 2022 Resolutions: 

• Sort out the Down there problems and prepare to be able to have sex  -This has been overdue and I think its going to be some therapy work I've got to sort out, Also i have Email a potential therapist or two
• Have branded fast food with someone outside family - This basically means a fast food date of some sort, especially as i've been seeing fast food purchases on and off the past year and makes me crave it like i dream about it, but even just sitting on the sofa could work with this too
• Tweet more -  This is going to be important to either call out bad events OR even just feel like i've accomplished something
• Try to make more videos at least 2 per month  - Since I feel like I've really been lazy in content creation and this needs to change and maybe make it work with all nighters now a decent laptop I've got just an SSD to change over and then edit, 
• Do more Day out vlogs  - Hopefully more than 1 this year to be done. Exeter is the first. 
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So that is the way we go, this should be able to find this out. and maybe its going to be new people to enjoy but there is more support and things will be able to work out. 

But Enjoy the new year and we can see how it goes. 

omracer

Christmas 2021: A Wet Christmas Weekend

 Well, this is the first of the final few days of the year, it goes to be the case that things were feeling different this year, the time of Christmas already upon us and well, that means to explore what happened on this wet day. With Rosie being a pest, some questions and even a nice way with 2 dogs and lush food.So it was time to begin the preparation and also enjoy the day itself which my body would be showing the signs of exhaustion itself. But here we go on what actually was the case. 

The past days before Christmas: 

So this is where the body has to push its limits to get the posts sorted, it was also the week of more work to finally get done. 

Sunday:

We start from that Sunday which was getting a PC built for a customer and was a review of some RGB addons for it and it worked nicely, Cable tying made it longer and then its all ready to go. Plus one gift or 2 from one of my regular customer.

The gifts from a customer on a Saturday night. 

The Build before 

The selfie with the mask

got it built

the reset buttons lets the LEDS change 

The build when off 

Some Cable Tidy 

But then it leads to more of the chance of getting that to be restful and get started to cain more of the blogpost for the end of the year review. Which was on to getting February r march sorted, my head forgets from how many late nights were going to be. Also it was nice to have roast pork. 

Roast Pork 

Monday:

Then it was leading to the last monday for visits of the Year, in a serious way, that is emotional but in others that is also emotional for other reasons for posting some presents off, But first we deal with the circumstance of a visit of USB duplicators and why cloning it struggles to take its time, but that was going to be sorted quicker than I expected and then it was time to get money paid in and things posted off. It was actually emotional with one of them to be posted but that will be for the future for that to explain. But after those it was a nice under £5 post budget for 1st class on both. Especially as I had to run to Whitchurch since the queue was way too long in the main post office. 

One of the presents 

Then it was going to be the case of a nice mix of food from Tesco purchased a few weeks ago to be able to have and the Bao Buns are so nice, Especially with  one of the Microwaved Black bean and beef to cover it and then it leads to more typing up. But a visit to lidl was showing some nice Vlogging kits with a smaller tripod I could use if travelling in the next year maybe. 

The Bao Buns

So it then leads to the next day which then is going to be a very exhausting day. 

Tuesday: 

So this was a late wakeup after typing the post up and watching FNAF which does make it always the case of anxiety stressing and then it was going to be one long day , work had a few things to sort out and some panic over consoles not selling so a aggressive deal was the savior on that side. But then one customer wanted a visit, in yelverton and so i said about 6pm, and it was a RUN to get there, but kid you not, 1 hour 5 minutes from work to RAF harrowbeer in the dark is VERY actually not bad going. 

After that it was the time to finally run in the dark back from 7pm when i left since it was only an hour. There was a LFT to be done even with a runny nose went negative and after resetting Apple and Yahoo Passwords.  and I managed to get to lidl in under 1 hour and then it was time to get some bits. But the night was so dark and it would have been a good time to take a tripod with me to take scenes of thre night sky on the moors. 

The night sky as I left the visit 

More of the night sky

The route to go back to lidl

Getting to lidl

Now as i got there it was the case of getting a vlogging kit and WAIT it was £5.00  discount overnight since  that was true so I got it along with some extra bits like chicken balls and crunchie spread too. Plus Lemon Vitamin C tablets are a new thing. 

The Bundle from lidl

But then it was the run home and Just as i got back, I heard news of nan being frozen and unable to get into bed and ok yes this was due to her jab just hours ago causing the confusion and mental state becoming concerning, but in a lucky chance, I could actually have a nice bit of leftovers for tea before either typing things up or even getting a video up for the present haul. 

The LEftovers with added mexican rice and chocco nussa

But then since it was nearing 9pm, should i or should i not film, By the end of washing things up, parents came home so we then chatted and watched TV until they went to bed and it was the case of filming the video for the present haul. Now yes I will admit the timelapse in there did not fully film due to battery but also I was ok with the fact I got something out of it and the ring light it a nice help for this. The VHS effect when editing this 2 days later was a nice joy too. 

The Selfie before the filming

The Presents wrapped

Then it was time to go to bed and wake up to more work and chaos to do, this time it was some jobs to sort out, hopefully the final 2 Xbox Series X of the year to sell (had 4 from Saturday, sold one Sunday and Tuesday) as well as my worries about the future in some aspects which have been haunting me too. 

But it was then more typjng up until 3-4am for the blogpost for those days, minus some chilli  until we get to the Christmas eve. 

The last 2 Series X in stock 

Thought that thursday was actually going to be another hectic day with Ordering to sort out before the Eve of christmas, more gfuel sold, some phone repairs not going ahead due to actual costs and phone grips are out of stock so that is a new year gold to source i Think.  Plus it was the case of finally being able to post a GTX 1050ti from in stock. But after that was a foggy car drive with one of my regulars to fit a Intel wifi card due to some sleep issues using a m.2 Realtek card and it did make a difference but the truth will be the new year on that. Then it was leftover chilli with adding some Buffalo Wing Seasoning and also Quaker Oats to it and it was nice but that spicy feeling in the tummy and it was not even a whole sachet. 

The Chilli with seasoning and quaker oats

But then it was the Main ahead of events to go by. The first of the trilogy so to speak, normally I would say its a case of doing seperate but for this, it will be the 3 in one trope. 

Christmas Eve: 

So this was more of the waking up late and also the time to finally realise that things might be a bit quieter to be able to get videos sorted out and the editing of that present haul video. Plus taking the final part of the advent calendar from reeces is such as nice way to have lunch for later, but it was about 4 things to be booked in, Like a £500 order with some SSDs and some PC Cases , but this was then to be the case of that to be booked int, then changing a motherboard over which someone wanted that done, but for some reason, the battery did not activate or Windows does not find it , so that is strange but it could be the case of the powerjack as well but we will find out when I continue on that next week in the in between time. 

The Last of the Calendar 

The Peanut butter cups for lunch.

Stock to book in

As it then goes to hopefully sorting out this mac which had a frayed DVD Drive cable but in the end, it turns out that needs to be ordered for it to work so another plan next week, but then it was getting that video started and well, it ended up last minute 2 customers popping in and then having to replace an iPhone 11 Pro Speaker to get this update to go through. But then I left at a time of 17:20 and well that is good compared to having a visit, but since it was a rush to get this video up, I decided to just leave and head to the new surgery I've changed to. But they could still not book the vaccine for that beginning of that week which as been the 2nd attempt to then. But this would be the shameful listing of still no change locally. So that was then a run home in the cold and dry but the road and path was soaking wet. 

The visit to the surgery (Tavyside) 

The meadows on the final run home fromwork before christmas. 

Then I got home and greeted mum and dad and she was on the phone, but she used one of those LED lights in a bottle for the hallway and it makes it nice and christmas in the house. So then it was time to enjoy a nice meal and well maybe relax but no this was the case of being able to have some of  the nandos wraps for tea. Like adding in any mayo. 

The BBQ nandos wraps for tea 

But then it was to then change over to get the vlog edited, using the FCPX and then it was a case of having to check with CPU friend to help push that performance  but it turns out its still an issue with CPUfriendfriend  But it did improve performance once it was over the night for the most part. Even when going to bed to then use a Razer  Deathadder Essential White (Soon to maybe review) to finish the editing. Also I got to sleep at 4:30am on Christmas day.  But this was even with a teaspoon of gfuel and about 4 lemon vitamin C tablets in water. 

The Bedroom Drawer with the laptop on top to get it editing

So then it leads to having a few hours sleep for christmas day.

Christmas Day: 

So, it comes to this, and getting up at 9:15 or so am to then get a shave started to get clean which made it that bit easier  to hopefully plan out the solution of getting a video filmed for the message without interrupting family. But then i was too late in that part to use the onesie, which means it was the case to have to wear something else, But the bags of presents were now in the hallway as well as Rosie was jumping up and begging me for walk. This was just after Dad left to drop and collect presents and gifts from his side of the family, since the boxing day was cancelled for that, heck we were even the last. 

Rosie Wanting her walk

So then we finally walk and just as I walk out with the christmas jumper and it pours down with rain. Which was  not good, then it was time to film and Rosie was barking for the ball so that stopped me  being able to film easily, but after 4 attempts it was filmed and choosing which one is the best option to take and it was the 3rd one I went for in the end. 

Rosie in the field

A Selfie before the filming 

Then it was the message and time to get talking about change which for me was stressful and also the chance of being able to mention important things without being direct about it. But it was pouring and then makes it to getting to keep dry and deal with Rosie but eventually I got home about 10:50 and then time to get it edited and that took some time. 

Then it comes to the editing for a fair bit of 30 minutes and then it was just on the rendering side complete while getting in the car to pickup grandparents, in the actual rain , but this is where it gets that bit hetic with that moment to help get nan into the car in the pouring rain but with me and dad, we got it in and the wheelchair in, but after that and pads to pick up, we got them in and to drive home. Which then it was time to wheel her in and also to see my sister while the table was being prepared. 

The Table is laid 

Then she had the presents loaded in the hallway and the amount of them got bigger. But it was for later on that was to be unwrapped. Plus the cat was to be trapped in mums bedroom for most of that entire day 

The Presents 

Then it was time for the food and once some uploads had finished, it was ready to eat and my god this  was nice, the turkey was from morrisons, mum did make some recipes from Jamie Oliver including Roast potatoes and also a Vegetable crown suflet thing. It was really nice and really fulfilling. 

The Roast with the sauces and more 

It really was nice and then from chatter on various parts and bits and even with the face nan and grandad were managing to eat it and we were getting full over time, but it was nearing 13:45 before desert was to be fine, now for me i went for some cornflakes dipped in chocolate which it is a nicer way around it.

The desert from it 

Then it was soon time to get everyone into the mindset of the lounge for the presents to be handed out before the queens speech and we did, with so many presents, more so for my grandparents than anything else. But some really nice presents from a back pillow cushion, Playstation jackets and even some amazon gift cards and perfumes to go with it too. But some really nice bits that work out and some useful and some to keep warm like thermals and even slipper socks which I've been using non stop in ways these past 2 months .

The Pillow Cushion

A cat mug and slipper socks

Toblerone

More slipper socks

Lynx bag 

A popcorn maker as well

2 x Mountain warehouse thermals

The umbro Ice kit

Police  perfume 

My sister sent a cute pun cat card

Amazon gift card in a tin 

The cute christmas card of that chalkboard look 

A new RFID wallet is a nice kit too 

Then after the case of mum and sister helping nan to get to the toilet, it was time for a short queens speech  and it did feel very personal and a good tribute to her husband and this meant it, she felt how people this year have had to isolate and it can be hard for them and it also makes that work. But it was then a performance and a nice dawn of one of their castles. 

The Queen

Then it was a few last gift cards to open up with some money and also a one4all card which then leads to the packing up before mum and dad dropped off granparents. Which me and sister walked both dogs for a short bit before being able to then take some pics of both of us, some had silly shots and some were good but in the end it was the case of some blurred shot .

The more cards out 

a mistake on the timer with the same tripod 

But then it was time to relax with parents after sister left half hour  to watch some films and things, it was nice to finally not have to do much work and it was good that things were on call to finally not be stressed out the dogs had some costumes and poses before one left. But then it was soon time to have some leftovers aka bubble and squeak. 

Rosie and the other dog

Adverts while the lights on and the fire roaring 

Even the pets were slept out 

Eventually it was those nice leftovers and turkey sandwiches are nice and adding flavours like cranberry and pretzels in is nice too, sure it was not what i really wanted to have in but that will be for later.

The leftovers 

A fudge Cake 

Then it was more relaxing and watching films until we all went to bed, I did get some of this typed up and then it was the case to be able to get this closer to finishing since there is a deadline of 6 months left to type up before the end of the year and I might have just been on the side of too late but that can change if I get the time. But then once it was 1am, I went bed and time to sleep for another day, which this time could be going for a swim. 

Boxing Day. 

So i woke up to a text asking how my christmas was and then did not get a reply for many hours later, Finley greeted me while i went toilet then back to bed then after a fap, I got up and had a shower for a change, since my hair was a mess with lumps and flakes as well as feeling not fresh. But then mum got up and Rosie growled as per usual. But then it was time to check emails and also see what the plan was, since the clouds were blue sky when I looked outside. 

But then it was not the time to go to widecome or bude so it was good to have a nice mini roast dinner crunchie spread roll for breakfast. 

The mini roast dinner in a roll with crunchie spread

But then it was another walk to give Rosie but on my own and with the balls across the field and she played nicely, the path was muddy as usual and then the field was wet but the air was drying up, So it was just to play that ball, even the sun was coming out as well. But 45 minutes later I was back home and there we go. It was then time for the lunch which some easy mix of red onion and mayo makes one fantastic slaw. 

The leftover lunch 

Then later on after chatting and watching calendar girls, it was time to go for a walk, I suggested burrator and also dad was making alot of jabs and points about to get the JAB asap without much care or regard for the preparation of that, especially of the fact things could go wrong if i don't get time to recover from what happens after it, since well anything can happen. But we then got changed and drove over there, we spoke to a neighbour on the same estate and he guesses that it would be busy there for the most part and we still drove anyway. But we got there and it was time to get out of the car and walk from the quarry along the old railway patch and back. 

A foggy and grey look over the Dam and the lake

A closer look at the lake

Another look

As we walked om, we noticed some fencing as you enter the forest of the railway line, turns out an EE mast Did get built here and also was mentioned to me earlier due  to a customer wanting 4G in sheepstor. But this was not activated just yet since i knew and saw my phone had no signal. But itwas sleek and the black makes it not as much standing out as other masts. But this is finally a EE spot compared to a not spot most of the area i live in is, I noticed this more as i was streaming the laptop to the phone. 

The new EE mast

But then it was more nagging and pressure to get the vaccine done this coming week instead of when I planned it and then it was talking about other friends and customers of dad about it all. But then we got to the road which the path goes to princetown or the road goes back to the reservoir round ring road. and we chose to walk down there. But we did until we got back to the leat and walked across there and back to another road to then pass the lake, with santas and other cars jam packed. 

Cut trees and fences 

More views of the like 

Then We walked back past the visitor centre and saw the carvings, to then passing more cars back and forth as well as eventually getting back to the dam itself which in a way was always the sign of the busy times during #lockdown3 so much so police actually bothered to turn up. But someone and a couple i heard recently drowned here from a suicide attempt from some inside work gossip. 

The carvings

A views of the dame and reflection

Then it was nearing 4pm and we managed to walk back to the car since it was sunset in 17 minutes from there. We dried off and got in, then time to get driving back while listening to the final uk top 40 of 2021 and some bangers on there and typical how collabs did not get 2nd place the charity one but the non charity one with 2 same artists get it, like alo the Kunts never got in a mention for obvious reasons. 

The route taken

Once we got back, it was time to bathe the dog and then we all sat down to watch TV together and have some turkey chinese curry halfway through and then it was watching various films until 11:45 and typing this up, sure I got a text reply back around the 6:15 mark but then no reply after that. 

The leftover meal 

And so that was my christmas and it was a positive one, now its time to catch up from the end of the year review still and then the music video which will be tricky on what to choose. 

Happy Christmas, Kwanzaa and Stay safe

omracer