Well, without realising I've not published for a whole month on here and forgetting with so much drama happening in small stages, its time for have catchup since a lot has gone on with me from falling out with potential meetups, breaking #noonlinefeedinmgfeburary and also with the body getting exhausted, new bikes and the like.
Okay, also meals were soo good when I was hungry after work too.
But even S was a bit odd on how I casually say who I feed and things, like here is the same way I talk to you in real life and even McDougall said something about how Open I was and maybe some don't like that back at Charley's Party 4 YEARS ago. But let's be clear if it wasn't for blogging and opening my life up, I probably would be dead now, like I've felt like I've needed to vent for many years and if I never did, well I probably would not have lasted until 2011 let alone 2019. Like I've put myself in stupid moments, I've fallen and had heart snapping, I've changed my life and its been good to put a story out there and okay this month and year I've been quieter and more reflective but going from where I was to where I am now, hardly much but more than I could imagine.
But this ruined a night and maybe the rest of the month, Though I was lucky enough to be chatting to this dream girl too who was nice and super down to earth, other girls I fed got paetron and heck even won a doughnut clip on Monday as I had to cycle home then out after installing dragon for a customer, nuance are nightmares and will feel chills in the Spine too. But I did feed a Scottish girl which is good karma to find out.
But with this, things felt a change in the air, productivity was low, Life felt autopilot mode with working most of the evenings and some customers really even making it feel like im back and forth, me ordering and even having to use PP for a car for my colleague which did get it paid back so its not too stressful but it did mess up ordering from reps, like the WB rep I really got to know, she left the company only 2 weeks ago, bless.
S and I have been closed yet further apart as she was in some amazing moment with a guy and then going over to Cali which I was jealous about but shes the friend whos there for me yet I feel her as a friend more than this incredible sized girl I used to jaw drop at anymore from her new diets and all. But its what makes her happy and she's still up for meeting before she leaves the UK eventually.
But from here things went down since A cold was starting to happen, especially after the girl I chatted to up north was starting to get one when I got it the NEXT day on the 22nd, which was going to drain my energy big time and probably with the mood, drama it was kind of waiting to happen as well. Also a chat with me and a girl on Reddit was a shocker since it was 126 days for her to reply to me, which maybe S is right and im too patient, but sometimes we just have to wait or move on and if we get a reply, then its great, if not, nothing lost. Well, minus money if that's the case.
Also then I got christea a Greggs voucher but she got ill the day after that which was a shame but see, making the effort is nice with people you can feel safe with their number to call. Like some girls, it's hard to get to that stage and especially as expensive as food, but maybe something like a girls number is an entitlement, I don't know.
But to get myself better with the cold, Drink happened, well tropical juice and even a delivery driver got barked at on a Saturday morning too but ah well, Victoria Plumbing should know when a toilet has been picked up a week before and that made me wear crocs to work.
But once that was starting to get over, I was feeling a bit better, okay work mode was happening and I still get coughs now but Beck called me a gangsta when she showed me some bags too. But minus work arguments and rent to pay. Things seem to look up, chatting to girls and also buying hair dye ready for the new colour later this month, even one feedee said nope when I should dye it blonde (which goes ginger).
February is an odd feeling
We all start off with that catchup vlog about the failed date the few days after which really I need to be quicker about an event like this.
Okay, also meals were soo good when I was hungry after work too.
for tonight. fish cake, fish fingers, chips, red cabbage, chives, bread roll, rice Krispies and mayo pic.twitter.com/wtQp48dqqn— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) February 1, 2019
But things were going better than I thought, okay sure I and Chloe had made up and it was even to the stage I was going to finally face fear and try on a condom for the first time. Which this was finally to see what was going on and maybe if I knew what I was doing. But I went into boots after work and I was nervous and debated a few times of which size to get. Ended up getting Durex Ultra Safe 56mm which was the biggest they have in the ultrasafe version.
But alas with this also came an evening off and was time to get a #omracereats made up too.
Though this was messing with my schedule of streaming KH3 and also I did join rate my plate which actually has submitted only 1 or 2 of the meals I've had so might have to push that soon. But Also a girl I even had to send uber vouchers for last year lost 8 stone in a year, which actually she said on her insta questions she would not go on a date with me, yet missed being big and also was skint so it was part of her loss. But some hotels she went to were peng if I could ever justify it. Ah well. Also, gold bars are very tasty.
But that moved on to nothing heard from lucy since that mess up at all. so what fucking waste of a justeat from the Atlantic fryer. This was hoping to be a good #Noonlinefeedingfeburary. But it was also the truth on maybe why I prefer a lot of things other than sex and being asexual could have been it, S agreed, Christea was really good about it with me to explain a lot to me with her knowledgeable background, though I and she improved over this month too.
Also, Zara and I started chatting again, like it felt good and her place was looking nice and sure I still have to get her a takeout to be delivered to her new place but we will see.
By the 5th, things were finally good, late nights were common but I finally put on the condom after a second or so used. But it felt tight, maybe I wasn't fully hard but I feel it might be a 60mm to try to make the comfort stage. But thanks to Chloe and S, it was done. So maybe a big mini relief, but apparently I have a micropenis anyway due to the 11.6cm hard which is understandable but its probably the phimosis causing that.
Also shoutout to a follower for finally realising what Chocco Nussa is.
Then it starts. DRAMA. Well not for me hitting home but communities being outed which is totally fair and made a site go into lockdown mode and boy the insta live about it was FUN, to say the least, but this was the only the start of the Drama since soon Tavi was going to have a Hotel of debates and accusations on its own. But things about that were soon to be flattened down too. Also, a GTX 1060 from a supplier for £185 is not good value. Oh, and omelettes are really good.
Also from that lovely shopping trip, was Popcorn to cook and boy was it nice, even the corns unpopped was tasty af, sure dangerous according to some but it was still soo good. Polls were being done and it was looking like 2 reviews were going to be dropping soon.
But then it was soon to be the boy who lived in Britains Angriest Town. Yikes, the work neighbours reacted seeing the article on Yahoo. But that's the times we live in to borrow money, build something then lease it off to something that's already 5 minutes walk down the road. But it did raise debate, even Torchy added me on FB and said: "best just to delete this". But it was all stress for nothing when a vote overturned it. Good good.
Then A shitty firm was scamming my parents and making fake phone calls for some loft solution that actually causes houses to have a new roof fitted. But £10,000 for that is no thank you either, besides a bathroom was to be redone apparently.
Then it was normal working weekends, reviews to be planned around the time off I had and regen to be kicked in, with Bikes that also had to be swapped, I was borrowing my dad's bike for about a month and boy did those fucking hills to Brentor kill me. But this got me the chance to review a SHIT cable.
But then it was a surprise review, A chicken Tika slice from the garage I parked up at and finished the cable review.
From here it was nearing valentines and rules was meant to be broken for #Noonlinefeedingfeburary and that ended up also losing the trust between me and a cute northern feedee which I didn't even know her real name yet spent about £50 on her since chatting to her last year. I was feeding since she felt a bit out of place when not real. But that ended up to some pretty big debates and fallouts and okay £15 on pizza lost, But with things like this, it was rules broken, potentials lost and well more chance with another feedee up north I've been getting along well with, and slightly older than me too.
A nice £3.59 shop in boots. £3.49 for durex and £0.10 for BBQ Chicken Wrap pic.twitter.com/5SukHYVBKy— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) February 2, 2019
But alas with this also came an evening off and was time to get a #omracereats made up too.
For Tonight Chilli Chicken Stuffing noodles and Coco Pops pic.twitter.com/TiVSaH7obz— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) February 2, 2019
Though this was messing with my schedule of streaming KH3 and also I did join rate my plate which actually has submitted only 1 or 2 of the meals I've had so might have to push that soon. But Also a girl I even had to send uber vouchers for last year lost 8 stone in a year, which actually she said on her insta questions she would not go on a date with me, yet missed being big and also was skint so it was part of her loss. But some hotels she went to were peng if I could ever justify it. Ah well. Also, gold bars are very tasty.
for brunch, a crunchy bran gold bar mayo toasted Sandwich pic.twitter.com/u2gAxl6byE— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) February 3, 2019
But that moved on to nothing heard from lucy since that mess up at all. so what fucking waste of a justeat from the Atlantic fryer. This was hoping to be a good #Noonlinefeedingfeburary. But it was also the truth on maybe why I prefer a lot of things other than sex and being asexual could have been it, S agreed, Christea was really good about it with me to explain a lot to me with her knowledgeable background, though I and she improved over this month too.
Also, Zara and I started chatting again, like it felt good and her place was looking nice and sure I still have to get her a takeout to be delivered to her new place but we will see.
By the 5th, things were finally good, late nights were common but I finally put on the condom after a second or so used. But it felt tight, maybe I wasn't fully hard but I feel it might be a 60mm to try to make the comfort stage. But thanks to Chloe and S, it was done. So maybe a big mini relief, but apparently I have a micropenis anyway due to the 11.6cm hard which is understandable but its probably the phimosis causing that.
Also shoutout to a follower for finally realising what Chocco Nussa is.
This is what choco nussa is for people that doesn't have a clue on what it is, enjoy it george https://t.co/eUg5w06Xdl— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) February 6, 2019
Then it starts. DRAMA. Well not for me hitting home but communities being outed which is totally fair and made a site go into lockdown mode and boy the insta live about it was FUN, to say the least, but this was the only the start of the Drama since soon Tavi was going to have a Hotel of debates and accusations on its own. But things about that were soon to be flattened down too. Also, a GTX 1060 from a supplier for £185 is not good value. Oh, and omelettes are really good.
for tonight. a oat so simple rice Krispie chocolate spread omelette, beef pastrami , curry muffin, fried bread, salad, biscuit, crisps, ketchup and mayo pic.twitter.com/57us3JbiUO— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) February 7, 2019
Also is a GTX 1060 ASUS OC for £185 good value or not— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) February 7, 2019
Also from that lovely shopping trip, was Popcorn to cook and boy was it nice, even the corns unpopped was tasty af, sure dangerous according to some but it was still soo good. Polls were being done and it was looking like 2 reviews were going to be dropping soon.
Also would you prefer for a video— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) February 7, 2019
But then it was soon to be the boy who lived in Britains Angriest Town. Yikes, the work neighbours reacted seeing the article on Yahoo. But that's the times we live in to borrow money, build something then lease it off to something that's already 5 minutes walk down the road. But it did raise debate, even Torchy added me on FB and said: "best just to delete this". But it was all stress for nothing when a vote overturned it. Good good.
Then A shitty firm was scamming my parents and making fake phone calls for some loft solution that actually causes houses to have a new roof fitted. But £10,000 for that is no thank you either, besides a bathroom was to be redone apparently.
Then it was normal working weekends, reviews to be planned around the time off I had and regen to be kicked in, with Bikes that also had to be swapped, I was borrowing my dad's bike for about a month and boy did those fucking hills to Brentor kill me. But this got me the chance to review a SHIT cable.
for breakfast. a bacon and chocolate spread toasted sandwich pic.twitter.com/7SghDRs0iP— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) February 10, 2019
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| The GPS Cable |
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| The Cable on the bike that didn't do anything |
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| The slice and the drink |
From here it was nearing valentines and rules was meant to be broken for #Noonlinefeedingfeburary and that ended up also losing the trust between me and a cute northern feedee which I didn't even know her real name yet spent about £50 on her since chatting to her last year. I was feeding since she felt a bit out of place when not real. But that ended up to some pretty big debates and fallouts and okay £15 on pizza lost, But with things like this, it was rules broken, potentials lost and well more chance with another feedee up north I've been getting along well with, and slightly older than me too.
do I break my rule this month for valentine's Day to make effort— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) February 10, 2019
also i broke my rule this motnth and not on valentines, oops— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) February 12, 2019
am i too open on twitter— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) February 12, 2019
But even S was a bit odd on how I casually say who I feed and things, like here is the same way I talk to you in real life and even McDougall said something about how Open I was and maybe some don't like that back at Charley's Party 4 YEARS ago. But let's be clear if it wasn't for blogging and opening my life up, I probably would be dead now, like I've felt like I've needed to vent for many years and if I never did, well I probably would not have lasted until 2011 let alone 2019. Like I've put myself in stupid moments, I've fallen and had heart snapping, I've changed my life and its been good to put a story out there and okay this month and year I've been quieter and more reflective but going from where I was to where I am now, hardly much but more than I could imagine.
But this ruined a night and maybe the rest of the month, Though I was lucky enough to be chatting to this dream girl too who was nice and super down to earth, other girls I fed got paetron and heck even won a doughnut clip on Monday as I had to cycle home then out after installing dragon for a customer, nuance are nightmares and will feel chills in the Spine too. But I did feed a Scottish girl which is good karma to find out.
But with this, things felt a change in the air, productivity was low, Life felt autopilot mode with working most of the evenings and some customers really even making it feel like im back and forth, me ordering and even having to use PP for a car for my colleague which did get it paid back so its not too stressful but it did mess up ordering from reps, like the WB rep I really got to know, she left the company only 2 weeks ago, bless.
S and I have been closed yet further apart as she was in some amazing moment with a guy and then going over to Cali which I was jealous about but shes the friend whos there for me yet I feel her as a friend more than this incredible sized girl I used to jaw drop at anymore from her new diets and all. But its what makes her happy and she's still up for meeting before she leaves the UK eventually.
But from here things went down since A cold was starting to happen, especially after the girl I chatted to up north was starting to get one when I got it the NEXT day on the 22nd, which was going to drain my energy big time and probably with the mood, drama it was kind of waiting to happen as well. Also a chat with me and a girl on Reddit was a shocker since it was 126 days for her to reply to me, which maybe S is right and im too patient, but sometimes we just have to wait or move on and if we get a reply, then its great, if not, nothing lost. Well, minus money if that's the case.
for lunch today. a free pastry that a customer gave me today pic.twitter.com/nyvcqbGhZa— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) February 16, 2019
But then out of the blue, a new bike my parents got for £40 was impressive, okay I did offer to pay back but they did say it was an early birthday present though its really a Work expense. The Auctioneers can be pretty good really. But this was soon to be tested and it can actually make me quicker to work if I drink REGEN with it. Mi Fit is still going strong too.
But minus the fact NO gaming videos were made, this wasn't even typed up and though another #omracerreivews was planned, I was feeling drained and through chatting to new ladies and making an effort was key, the cold was not helping, at all. Though things like Chilli and Skinny brides to fat wives was something to get me through, the cough, the fever, the tiredness, UGH, #
Also, I was getting a laptop sorted for streaming in the bedroom, but things like keyboards and power supplies to buy for it makes it a bit of a nightmare but, laptop spares are always useful. HP Don't maker spare parts for it anymore but it got some good vibes, then again i will probably borrow a new 480GB SSD from work since of projects so I can video edit on the go better. But also the
well I went really fast on a refurb bike for £40 from a local auctioneers today pic.twitter.com/OgexMnjDCB— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) February 18, 2019
But minus the fact NO gaming videos were made, this wasn't even typed up and though another #omracerreivews was planned, I was feeling drained and through chatting to new ladies and making an effort was key, the cold was not helping, at all. Though things like Chilli and Skinny brides to fat wives was something to get me through, the cough, the fever, the tiredness, UGH, #
for tonight. chilli con carne, curry muffins, salad, crisps, chicken, crunchy bran and mayo pic.twitter.com/CO1kC4RKXb— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) February 19, 2019
skinny brides to fat wives is my relationship goal— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) February 19, 2019
Also, I was getting a laptop sorted for streaming in the bedroom, but things like keyboards and power supplies to buy for it makes it a bit of a nightmare but, laptop spares are always useful. HP Don't maker spare parts for it anymore but it got some good vibes, then again i will probably borrow a new 480GB SSD from work since of projects so I can video edit on the go better. But also the
also spent £10 on a keyboard for the laptop I got given a while back pic.twitter.com/TzwCuAKPaq— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) February 21, 2019
I'm so glad to have a bath though it's the final one in this tub which has been there for me for many years, from selfies taken to even customers calling me in the bath pic.twitter.com/zRdOXAlTK4— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) February 22, 2019
Also then I got christea a Greggs voucher but she got ill the day after that which was a shame but see, making the effort is nice with people you can feel safe with their number to call. Like some girls, it's hard to get to that stage and especially as expensive as food, but maybe something like a girls number is an entitlement, I don't know.
But to get myself better with the cold, Drink happened, well tropical juice and even a delivery driver got barked at on a Saturday morning too but ah well, Victoria Plumbing should know when a toilet has been picked up a week before and that made me wear crocs to work.
for a £0.89 lunch today of tropical juice drink pic.twitter.com/EeZtKFT9tr— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) February 23, 2019
when you end up rushing out of the house and wear socks with crocs pic.twitter.com/UA1bslUcWr— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) February 23, 2019
But once that was starting to get over, I was feeling a bit better, okay work mode was happening and I still get coughs now but Beck called me a gangsta when she showed me some bags too. But minus work arguments and rent to pay. Things seem to look up, chatting to girls and also buying hair dye ready for the new colour later this month, even one feedee said nope when I should dye it blonde (which goes ginger).
ah well, won't be to long until a shave and maybe a new hair colour pic.twitter.com/xyqZ515M90— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) February 26, 2019
But then it leaves me to Monday, Ages of empires was overplayed by like 12 hours of matches in a week and though things are catching up, I did fall out with the girl up north so I'll have to spend more to cheer her up since im not dedicated enough but we are close to getting numbers, well before the fallout, we were anyway.a £4.50 shop in boots for some max blonde live hair dye pic.twitter.com/JBi2btlAbB— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) March 2, 2019
The Goals:
Nothing has changed here, lets be clear on that really. Its a shame but we will be sorted soon about it. But I've been invited to the same event as last year and might go again, but it's trying to get time off is a fucking struggle which is why most of my life has been well, boring this year. I will try to change this soon.
Expect a video up soon and more videos up soon too and posts. Maybe even a holiday at the end of the month lets hope.
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