The shattered dreams for a quest for love

So, it comes to the final week in febuary, times haven't changed that much, the weather is still quite stormy every other day, i'm still owed the £900 and i've been told to await payment, girls are getting knocked up every other days then soon things turn for the worse in the things in life you were paranoid would happen, happen at the worst time. But although i'm reluctant to rant about this, this is important and crucial to the search where this blog was to sum up, so its needed.

So it was a Tuesday morning, the weather was mixed, although it was sunny blue sky, there was a bas class of spitty rain, now this was worrying me to be able to get into town and sort out an extra birthday present for charley as well to get a belated valentines for the one girl i've missed and whos really been on my mind, maybe shes become into my dream girl in various ways, maybe i was turning to her while the money situation was on my mind, to keep me sane, or at least feel happy. But the weather became better so i headed out and cycled to wagamamma's to get the gifts. It was a nice ride, it did take longer than i thought, but i got there, only mildly soaked and that was as i got into town.

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So i got there and it was quite nice, sure the weather was a bit damp but that would be the least on my mind afterwards.

Outside Wagamamma's in Royal William Yard

So i walked in there and there was a blonde bbw serving, she was nice and was nice enough to colour code the cards, i loaded up £20 on each, paid in cash, luckily i got paid £70 for buying a £35 320GB laptop hard drive for a friend of my sisters and get his laptop up and running, that and i've not been topping up on my card until i've had the money back, which has almost been for 4 weeks now :@. Anyways i walked out and got the cards

The Cards i bought. its a nice style for a common card

Now this was when i found out, the one thing i had been dreading for months, Emma got engaged. 

I instantly knew this was going to hurt, i still wish it never happened, but it did, i felt tears and instantly weak. This wasn't good, well for her it is of course, since she gets happy but for someone that would of done almost anything to be with her and this means alot. So i travelled back into town, tears were out of my eyes but i had to push on. I got into town, then parked the bike and went for a toilet, i couldn't keep this in, i slammed my head on the cubicle door thrice, i hated what just happened. The next bit was trying to keep myself together when writing out her belated card. I was shaking as i was by the lottery stand, i wanted to baul my eyes out, maybe i'm over exaggerating but this was alot of happiness just grabbed and kicked to the ground.

Now this was time to actually do this and do what i wanted to get done, although what i wrote was different to what i wanted to write, it was the only thing i could think, but i walked in to maisie's work and after borrowing a pen from a black makeup artist, i wrote a note to her to ask to deliver it and left it under the card reader then walked out and waited in cex for a while, after about 10 minutes looking at phones and ipods, Pete, James and Nath walked in, we said hi and then i was nervy and then after pete asked what i got from wagammas, i told him and nearly burst again, i didn't want them to see that but my emotions were running high. But then it was waiting around and nath was planning to trade in his lover's 360 slim to get a xbone then trade that in for £300 to buy a ps4 for £225, its a long shot but it could work. Then we walked around town for a bit and ended up in Mcdonalds for the afternoon, i didn't feel hungry at all, especially after losing her, so it was pretty much chatting about various things, from geeky stuff to even finding out Bronti and Sash want to do a day out within 2 weeks, i felt skeptical but shes wanting to do something which i should take up on, especially since next week, last year was the first night i saw emma and was in her car, which we went ghost hunting . Which makes it feel at a time i might of been able to do something with her has been washed away. I did get a text from Charley when she found out and she tried to cheer me up, but what she said stuck in with me, maybe in a way which makes me feel uneasy on top of this but i'll get into that later. Things will be better with me and her soon, but that you can find out soon.

After that, it was on the way to the Job Centre, since Swaggy had to get something sorted out with working links, i don't know what but it was a short time to walk around with them. After getting in there, Nath saying the printers were fucked with the touchscreen mini job workstations, it was a quick walk out and back through drake's circus. By this time it was 3:49 and then we split our ways, James and Nath went to working links, Pete went to get the bus and i cycled back home. Now this was a harder ride, with everything on my mind, i didn't want to keep going and even part of me wanted to just crash into a car but as much as i deserve it for being an idiot and not trying hard enough so i could of had the chance. It would cause my life to be much worse and lose out even moreso than now. 

But before i left, i did do one thing which i perhaps shouldn't of done or actually won't even matter or even make it worse, but i had been hesitating on doing this for a while and i said to myself that "she needs a personal touch", so i walked into the florists in mutley and looked for something and explained i was looking for a belated valentines present, she suggest some flowers for £5 and i bought them, i was nervous, feeling like a heartless douchebag but i knew that if i didn't do this, someone else will and it would end up feeling the same with someone else as well as Emma, although i feels its going to end up like that anyway. So i wrote the card out the sales rep gave me, she did convince me to have a card, she mentioned that "use girls are weird, we like the tiny things like this". So i wrote it out. 

The writing in the card, part of me knew this won't make anything happen but i've lost enough already. 

The flowers i bough Sophie

Now i left and cycled over to a few blocks down the road and then i was nervous as i walked in her best mate's works and waited for a minute until she was finished chatting to a colleague, then i spoke to another staff member asking if i could speak to ash, she said ok then i waled over and she was wearing a nice red top along with some nice glasses, i asked if she could give this to sophie, she said yes and then i walked out after thanknig her, then it was another cycle back, to reflect on the possible choices i could take to win her heart over, but nothing viable was there, just the good old fashioned revenge on him and make him really know how much this has hurt me. Will it happen, it probably won't but i won't back down if it does. 

Eventually i got home about 6:30 and it was cold as well as tea was just about ready which was nice.

 But this was pretty much it. This was the clear track of finding out that i've lost the dream girl, the angel, the jackpot, whatever someone would call the "one". I know i haven't made as much effort as i should have, i knew i fell into a dream of wonder when me and her started which was going to end up for worse, but i wanted to actually make this work, time has changed in the 2+ years that i've fallen for Emma, from the world of Technology rapidly evolving, from being given more responsibility in work, from boosting up this blog, from making not one but 2 Short stories which although i wanted to many years ago with Sammy and her best friend Seona, i never had the courage and skill to do it, which she gave me indirectly, i've even done crazy amounts of present giving, which as much as some people are shocked with, i've learned and become alot more confident on doing it, i've had to be a heck of alot stronger to actually ask someone to get it to her, whether some were reluctant or some were happy to help like Jess which i can thank Emma for. 

I know this seems long winded and ranting and even creepy that someone i've only met once but fallen in love with and realised i could of had a shot something which i could of been content with, settled down with, had my first kiss and non family or animal cuddle with, have my first sleepover with, have my first proper date with, have my first calendar gift holiday where we both get presents with, have the "meet the parents" meal type event (Even try cassie's amazing roasts one day), have my first holiday with someone i love and not with my family, have amazing roleplay from both mine and her sexual desires with and so much more. All gone,  Slammed like a door so powerful that it would take a mircale to get back to that one chance. 

For now, i just have to hope for the best, hopefully it doesn't come down to doing the hollywood style wedding moment with the i object but for a girl i would go to the ends of the world for if i could, then its possible, i know i went too far and i know i shouldn't of moved on to her when i was still getting over Abbey in my 3rd year of feeling broken by that, i know i've put you in places where its not fair to have gone. I know i was betting my luck on catching up on the world with you without you realising. 

For the past 2 years, i'm sorry, for everything.

I still love you and you will remain in my heart, even if its a small piece thats in a shape of something you love the most, even more than me or tom

Thats all i can say. But on an unrelated note, i will leave this down below:

For now, expect a blogpost up soon, in a few days

A Look back with the highlights of an average blogger

Well its the last time of a blog post this year. Its been an interesting year with doing things i've never thought i could do, meeting new people and getting to know some amazing one, going places that have been a new experience. This is a summary of some of the top moments this year, the best crazy attempts to try to get the girl i love, Who i've lost chances with, things i've never thought i would do and more.

So lets begin in January. 

Well its the start of 2012 and high hopes for me were here. Yes i was still looking for love back then when it was less than a month before that video when i lost the chance with Emma, although, this year she becomes a major important part of my life. Which you'll find out later. As well as this, my YouTube was around 60,000 total views which is very tiny. Also i still said then and i say again, "i''ve done things i would of never expected to do", which in this case was me swimming in a river and fistpumping to a amazing song and also coverage of Tavistock Goose fair in 2011. But at the end of that video i realise that i've lost chances with girls in 2011. Especially when i finally moved on from Abbey, who until December in 2011, i was in love with and would of done almost anything to be with, now i've found someone that can do the same thing in my heart and is also curvier which adds to the attraction. Enjoy the first vlog of 2012 below:



Afterwards it was quite calm but yet, knowing what my heart wanted was important, but i realised i made a stupid mistake. After asking two good friends of mine to join me for a meal out with Emma and one of her good mates, Bronti.

Now this was all thought about after i started writing an erotic Novel (Well actually its a short story) about a dream i had one night and it was really detailed and it pretty much summed up alot of things i would want to do if i was dating her. Ok yes, it is a "erotic" story so there were alot of sex references, such as how hard my cock was when watching her eat or seeing her walk, or the time i frigged her (put my fingers in her vagina if thats the meaning of frigged) when she was around 300lbs at her mate's flat in Bristol. If you want to read the Novel, click the image below.

Image Created by Josh Bullock

But around this time, the meeting up for that meal, never came to plan and shit went down, i ended up seeing both my mates when they walked past subway when i was having my lunch, funnily enough it was a salad from subway. 

But then it turned nasty and one of my friends is the type of very argumentative person. Which caused massive fallouts with me and Emma. But i still have that last message before i lost the chance with her or to at least talk to her on FB, not that people would consider that important these days. But for the rest of the month i was finishing my Novel for a certain date which then, one of my Major plans to show her how much i love her and maybe let her know that i would do anything to be with her.

I did a night out vlog, ok it was my third night out vlog, but it was quite fun, i remember it was quite fun and the music was good and some of my old Tavistock college friends were in it. Enjoy it



But before i head off into more detail of the 2nd month. Enjoy one of my funniest videos to date according to various people. At a time the "Cinammon Challenge" was proving a popular fad. Even my mum and dad saw it but never told me they saw it but gave me hints they have seen it:

To February

Well this is one month that i've done the crasiest things and one of my plans i laid out and did. Now on that special day where apparently "Cupid" exists. VALENTINES DAY. Well this is where i finally did something and got a plan sorted and got it delivered. Now i still remeber being on the 10:40 83 bus from Tavistock to Plymouth, completely shaking and tweeting an old school friend about vaugley what i was doing. This was a nervous time. But i got off the bus at outland road, by morrisons. Then PELTED it to St Beaudoux to deliver  the present to Emma's work. Now this was something maybe a bit over the top, but it was the best thing i could think of.

A card with £250 cash and a 128mb stick with love songs from an iTunes Playlist (which i want to play if i'm making love or even making out with a girl) inside. 

I walked around in Lidl for a while over there to ease my nerves and do this, since its something that could go drastically wrong but it didn't. Then after that, i went there and delivered it to a slim, irish accented chap who worked there to give to her. Then i realised i finally did it, which afterwards i looked around some of the shops, went in co-op to browse and organise meeting one of her mates who i do like, Jess. Sadly nothing happened with meeting her, but i was yet to realise i will see her in many months to come. 

Funnily enough this was supposed to be my plan for that day:

Also some extra ideas on my youtube. Now to explain this shortly. I'm being a sheep and copying Mugsey Grant, there is no lie about that. But to be fair, i decided to give my own "Twist" to it and make it more factory done style. But enjoy the playlist of all my Shoutout Videos to date:



Also i caught on to the best flash game series i have ever played. New York Shark by Mausland (Wiesi) now, recording a video of that on the day of release. Best idea i ever did for a views boost. Currently as of the date of this blog post, its at 29,830 views.

The 3rd month, March

Well this month was a not too bad a month for me. Times i was doing something new. For the first time ever, i decided to cycle to Plymouth and back. Now that was a great experience, as knackering as it was. Also it was the last batch of shoutouts being finished at that point which finalised everything up.  But also on the 2nd week, a new event happened which got people talking and a shitload of controversary and also the realisation of how gullible people will be. JOSEPH KONY. Now this of course caused alot of arguements and people thinking that thye could make a change out of something that wasn't actually happening at the time. But for more of this topic, your welcome to watch the vlog as a blog post for that week below:



Now some notes to add. On that day that video was made, some things happened, one was the nicest blog posts i've ever read about me, ok it might of been the only one but i would recommend you read it to sum my life until then up. That and the bad news was one girl that was pretty amazing and was friends with Jess started dating a guy. Not nice on a Bday but to this day, they are still hitched up, although they did split up for a week which was quite ideal, but i didn't do anything or make a move, something i might of regretted, but everyone has regrets.


Now later on i decided to fork out for something that i think was the best geeky decision i ever made.
" i went to CEX to buy a Intel Core 2 Quad Q8300 for £80 to boost my desktop up. Went in there, they were looking for it which made me panic over the fact that it was sold even though i showed them the stock check online. They found it, the cashier asked me about buying it and i said why and he said "you'll defiantly see a performance" which was all good." 
That was quoted from this blog post. Also remember when Game were in Administration, now they are back to normal as i remember. 

Now on the final days of March, it was the opening of a new complex in Plymouth. The Life Centre. Which i decided to have a swim in the new pool in there as part of a opening weekend. That was a good swim for £3.80.
With the weather being amazing in that week as well, i could say this was the nicest week in March in 2012. But looking back on it now. It was nice and i was lucky, of course some things my heart was missing but there was nothing else i could of done.

An average April

Now with my times in March over and done with, April was also having amazing weather. So i thought it was time to make a sequel to a vlog i did around this time in 2011. The water was freezing but it was a good fun and some nice experiences, espeically for many of my followers who are in Education, it was easter holidays/spring break. Also going swimming when shouting about the "Pasty Tax" and the "Fuel crisis", then trying to cross a river and helping my bike over, not good lol. But then it was walking one a bridge that i realise now is the best way to help me get to Plymouth quicker amazes me. Enjoy the vlog below:

Apart from that, i had to get my passport renewed since it was over a year out of date. Which was done pretty quickly and the Government services did help. With that sorted for £87. it could mean i was finally legal to go out. Which proved useful in the later months. That and i finally played Ridge Racer Unbounded. Now this was a game i originally hated since it was the typical fanboy way of acting, but as of playing it. Its quite fun, although not much reference to the original series, its a good RR Title.

The Mayhem in May

The time goes on and now in May, there are many things that happened. Which one shapes up Britain of years to come. 

But to start off with, BSkyB had been starting a cycling project which was to promote cycling in thje country, and as the worst luck would have it, My ipod touch broke, so on that day, my parents dropped me off by the Life Centre and i cycled to the Hoe where the event was happening. Along the way, i bought a ipod touch 4th gen 32GB for £155. which i use to this day. Its a shame that my old ipod died, but i had no choice if i wanted to get vlogs done. Especially when the vlogs i was doing this year i would never expect to be doing. But enjoy the vlog of me cycling on the GoSkyRide:

This was only just the beginning since another event of my life had happened. My sister was coming home from her 7 months working on a Royal Carribean Cruise Liner for the 2nd year in a row (Shes on the last months of her 3rd and final year as of this blog post). She was back the weekend after the cycling vlog. Which funnily enough, was a BANK HOLIDAY. So i decided to go out for both of those nights (The Saturday night and the Sunday night). Of course this was my first night on a Bank Holiday as well as my first time in Oceana. Which was fun, quite quiet but dancing with the girl i liked that i mentioned in March. Also it was the first time i almost ran from Oceana to Yelverton, but just before that, i did get picked up by the cops at 4am (When i got to the corner before Yelverton) one the Saturday night. Enjoy the vlog for Sat below and the blogpost for that weekend HERE.

The worst thing about this time was at that time, some shitty BT Engineer coincidently cut our phone line off for 8 weeks and the internet went off for a week, which is bad luck on the weekend i had to myself :@.


Now it was nice to finally see my sister again on the week after, times were good for a bit. Then it was the UK's Time to shine. It was time for Britain to show itself off to the world, with "London 2012". And the Olympic Torch had arrived in Cornwall and ready for its round trip across the UK. For its first day, the Torch was headed for Plymouth. Which was an experience i will not forget seeing. Enjoy the vlog for this Olympic Torch arrival:


And with that, May was almost over. Work was not too bad, everyone was in high spirits. Egypt's Election had the results declared.

A Sliced June

With June arriving, it was time that all of us in the Family, decide to go on holiday. The holiday went quite smoothly, until one of the days. The accident happened and i sliced my right ankle. Even to this day it still hurts but not as bad it was then. It was still a problem getting around and it did take weeks to heel. But if ou want to Read up on the places i've went that week. You can read about it by clicking the picture below:

As well as this, i arrived home and there was an extra celebration. The reason was because of  The Queens Diamond Jubilee, with everything related to that. A vlog happened to showcasse the event that was happening in the Tavistock Meadows. And also Emma was working and me being the stupid twit i am, went looking for her, only to find i didn't know where she worked, which running around Tavistock in less than a week i sliced my ankle, is a bad idea. But enjoy the vlog below:

The planned love of July

With July arriving, it was an important time ahead, it was Jess'es 18th Birthday and i remember when i decided to get her a little something for it. A ipod touch and a box of chocolates. Now that isn't much but it still is something meaningful and important to me and also she broke her iphone so it was a cute excuse to attempt to make her happy by letting her use imessage on the ipod i bought her :) More info on this is here. 

Also on this month was a month where i redid an experiment of how many times my D says hi. Now working it out from the averages. I had 4 times per day. Which isn't too bad but then thats just my frustration in life. 

But after this was the Tavistock Carnival, with the celebration being of Great Britain, and also you get to see one of the olympic Teams that stayed in Tavistock until the Olympics started in this vlog.

But on the day before that, was a 3 year anniversary on Twitter. That sounds sad, but for me, that was an important moment. Since that twitter account marks the day i stopped depression gettting the better of me when i lost my heart's chance with Abbey. I won't go into detail about that here. But enjoy the vlog to mark the occasion:

An august of Sushi and Clubbing.

With August its a shorter story to tell. But with a nice two weeks with me and my sister. It was nice to spend quality time with her. At the first week, it was a nice night of clubbing. Not as entertaining as the other nights out but the blog post can be found HERE and the vlog of that night out below:

But it was also nice to enjoy my first Sushi Experience  with Yo Sushi opening a location in Plymouth, it was a good time for me and my sister to enjoy it. Okay she did nag with buying trendier clothes and Emma called during it which makes it awkward but then its nice that she called. Enjoy the video of me trying a meal from there below:


Also on some point, i went to Plymouth on a day out and i met up with some of Emma's Friends, one that are mostly nice to me. One the way back i met up with a girl that was pretty sexy called Sophie. We chatted and browsed co-op in Crownhill and i also got given her mate (Kyla's) mobile number. At one night me and soph has facetime sex. Which was pretty amazing and i was up until 3am with that. Really good with her fake orgasming.

The Deepest September

With the summer almost finished. This was a important summer. With my Sister's boyfriend from chigago moving over and also making friends with an amazing, kind girl i met in Subway once called Emma. This month is a deep month. 

So i'll begin by noting early in the month, i applied for a position in the Apple Store, out of 700 applicants, i got to the stage of the Hiring event, yes i was the youngest there. But that was alot of fun, but i didn't get to the next stage i'm afraid. 

That and it was Emma's 21st which i went all out (actually i spend £130, 120 less than i did on valentine's day) to make a good present out of that. It was something of joy and effort i made to try to get a chance with a beautiful i'm in love with. There is alot to say here, but you can read the blogpost of that week by clicking on the picture of what i bought Emma below:

Also the Grenofen tunnel is finally open which means its much quicker for me to cycle to Plymouth now. Especially with the Grenofen Tunnel opening. That will and has made it easier for me. Takes 2 hours to cycle in now, even quicker if i decide to cycle on the main A386 to get to Plymouth. Also speaking of cycling. I enjoyed sitting on the floor and vlogging the Cyclist blast through Tavistock on the Tour Of Britain. 

Also my sister left for her 3rd year of working on Royal Carribean. One the weekend she left, i decided to have yet another night out. Enjoy this one, some sexy ladies (two were plump or borderline bbw) were chatting to me in union rooms and also someone that used to take the piss out of me in crappy city plym but also has a weakness for food hugged me in oceana. The vlog is below:

#October, #Funfair, #Instagram, #HeySexyLady 

Well as you can tell. This was the month i finally was using Instagram. That shit picture hosting service owned  by FB for $1 Billion. So i signed up and realised it was not too bad. ok i did get about 70 followers before my account got banned.

 But it was fun while it lasted. Anyways with the week before  I bought a £25 giftcard for Topshop for the girl i started getting to know more's  and was nice to me. She really appreciated it for her 17th birthday which is a nice sign for me i'm doing something right in this quest for love As of now shes single and i have had dreams about me and her, but its just a dream with no solution. But also a new dance craze was dominating the world and as of now is the highest viewed song on YouTube. Below is me dancing to it:

Sadly this month I lost any hope with a old school friend who was a gorgeous blonde with a amazing size but basically she got knocked up :(. As with anything. There has been a surge of broodiness and people being knocked up and it was getting personal now. So i finally said my goodbye's after one final fantasy over her. 

And with that said. Tavistock Goose Fair was here. It was a good one, met a few people i knew, the weather held up and also i used blogTV on the go for the first time to make a vlog. But if you want to catch up on what happend that amazing week. Go HERE. But for the main vlog, enjoy it below:

Well after Goose fair, times were back to normal, but times were interesting, especially when i decided to do more shoutouts. With the next 19 done as of this date. Things were looking up. My heart was still in love with Emma and also i paid for me first cam session with a girl named paige. Now this may make maybe regret paying £15 for an hour when it was actually crap and boring. Sure it was paige and her mate kyla eating but it wasn't as good as in August when i had amazing faceitme sex with her mate called Sophie.

The Naughty Novemmber

With the 11'th month arriving its been a quiet month, although with not one but 2 firework displays i went to this year, it was ideal :). It was a short display but it was really nice to cycle in there straight after work for the first time ever. ok i did break my front like but now i fixed that using elastic bands :) Enjoy the vlog.

Apart from the fireworks. times were ok, i started using ask.fm and it helped me get to know 2 beautiful girls: Ashleigh and Phoebe. ones a cheerleader too lol, unusual combo for a feeder and a cheerleader. Nevertheless it was nice to learn some things, where they work and other intresting things. Note, it took about 3 weeks before Ashleigh was single then hitched up to a drummer.

Everything else was going ok, mostly missing Emma, realising another girl i used to get to know getting knocked up which did make me a bit saddened. But it was leading up to a plan to try my last chance this year which happened in December.

The Almighty Decemeber

With everything thats happened over these 12  months have led up to this. 

December started out really well and has been a good month with doing things i've wanted to, attempting to give one last shot to try to get a girlfriend this year. 

We start out with Dickensian, now that was a nice Christmassy feel to a guy that wasn't interested in Christmas this year. With the amazing smells, playing tokyo Jungle in work. It was a time of joy to a degree. The vlog includes what was around and also saying about my first fillipino takeaway expirence:

Of course times were cold and the weather getting worse and worse. But it was time to do something i always wanted, so i drank a tub of Chinese BBQ sauce. And then watched some new movies online. But it wasn't as bad as i thought it was. So enjoy the clip of me drinking it:

But after that it was the preperation for Christmas and also my last plan to try to get a girl this year went into action. People will probably say its a stupid idea but something's you do have to risk if you want to become happy with an amazing person like Emma, Jess, Sophie H, Ashleigh or Phoebe.. For more info what was done. click on the image of the cards for each of them:

But before i go into Christmas, one of the best things i've wanted to do was finally done. Actually there was two things. 1st off was buying a video clip from a BBW's Clips4sale for the first time. Costing me £3.91 for a 6 minute clip is good value and 2nd but related to a degree...Feed a girl cake:

Birthday Cake feeding by omracerfaps

Then it was a not too bad Christmas, with some good moments, interesting presents, food that could make a girl bust of her clothes (wish i could of done that to a girl in 2012 though) and warm family moments. With alot of things to describe. The link you to the blog post of what happened to me this Christmas is HERE. But nothing is complete than a guy in a onesie shouting merry christmas on a muddy footpath :D.

The last thoughts:

So that sums up 2012 in as much detail as i remember. I hope its been a good year for you. I know I've lost chances with girls I've known for years and girls I've known for weeks on-line  But its been a overall average year. Maybe i didn't get things i wanted to done, but i've become stronger inside and next year maybe plans for revenge and love. But I'll type a blog post of the New Year Resolutions up on the 2nd of Jan at the latest. But for now.

HAVE A HAPPY NEW YEAR FROM MYSELF, EXPECT A VLOG ON NEW YEARS NIGHT

See you in the New Year
Mattie

A holiday with various things :)

So last week i was on holiday, it was a good holiday. Okay, some things did happen but i'll explain.

Well i left after work on the saturday, it was quite quiet on the way down, but the evening view was quite nice on Bodmin moor. :) Oh and you couldn't forget the nice Subway i had from the Service station near callington. A delicious Chicken and Bacon Ranch sub with hearty Italian bread, gerkin, lettuce, onion and sweet onion sauce, oh and a bag of doritoes :)

Then i arrived at the bungalow and this was the view from the place i was at :)

Here we are. Now the first full day (Sunday) was actually a day of us all resting and being on the beach. Also i was walking around for a bit as well. I did have a roast dinner from the Portreath Arms along with a "sticky" deserert. Enjoy some pics from that day :)

This was my roast beef dinner, with lush potatoes, horseradish  and more :)

This was my desert, Sticky Toffee pudding. Very sweet and tasty

My tea for tonight, sausage roll, coselaw, crisp roll and crisps

A nice view looking east of Portreath

This is looking west of Portreath

This is the view of the town, you can see the place i'm staying at here too

Well the monday, it was a nice trip to Penzance. I did have an issue with my T-Mobile dongle but thats now fixed, even thought i had to buy a new one Cost me £20 incl a £10 topped up which they couldn't do on the old sim card which is a pain in the ass. But i did get the train in and it was only £2.50 from redruth (return ticket) and the train journey is nice. One thing i would want to do with a girl is take her on a train journey and spend the day together, that is one plan for a date if i get lucky and shes up for it :) This was my lunch when i was down there, a nice JD Wetherspoons burger and chips and j2O for £4. 

The Tuesday, well this was a good day. didn't do much until about 12 when i cycled to Devoran from the bungalow. The weather was quite nice on the way back and bits on the way there. The pub i went to along the way is called the Fox & hounds and it was quite nice food. I only had a pint of lime and lemonade and a basket of chips. The basket of chips cost £3. This was about 12:50pm. :)

Then i got to devoran around 2:50pm and then after that i filmed the rest of the way back :)

Well after that i relaxed and then got tea and then relaxed.

Wednesday. Well this was a good day until about 3pm. Basically we went to Hayle for some shopping and food. Then while i was on the beach i was drawing my feet in the sand, and then i sliced my ankle.Then limping with blood and covered in sand, i got to the lifeguard and they wrapped it up in bandage. Then had to wait 3 hours in Royal Cornwall hospital. After that i got back to the bungalow and was resting my legs then went sleep. Pics from that day are below :)

The view of St I'ves from the place i cut my ankle

The view up north from where i cut my ankle (or in the sea near there)

My tea i had afterwards. A standard pasty from Philips Bakery in Hayle, along with ham crisps and ketchup.

A nice Red Berry Smoothie from costa, cost me £2.45. Tasty but a fucking rip off tbh

Well Thursday, it was a nice day, heading out to falmouth at around 12 and then limped around and my sister topped her credit up and i actually started running but was quite painful but it helped. Then we had lunch and i had a nice Bacon & Egg bap. After that, i was walking/limping alot through the town and got to the Royal Pier about 3:30ish then started limping back to the town centre car park, then drove home and had tea

On the Friday, we decided to return home and we got packed up and tidied the place up then drove home. Before we left, as my mum was tidying up the bedroom, she found this. a DEAD, SQUASHED RAT. We then chucked it out and then drove home, with lunch from the SAME Subway we went to on the way there. 

And then relaxed for the rest of the day, well i did anyway.

Okay, now thats the end of my holiday down cornwall. It was good and although it turned out bad for my ankle, it was a nice relaxing holiday. But i did go to work for a bit on Saturday to help out, got told to keep things in mind.

Well one last thing i realised is the girl i love now works in Tavi sometimes, on the monday there was a festival in the meadows and she was also working from 3 til 8 somewhere, after recording the vlog below 

and wandering around for a bit, i tried to find where she works and actually see her for the first time. Looking in both Co-ops, Lidl, and other places for about 2 hours and running on my legs was not the nicest feeling, but after checking morrisons, i gave up and had to run home and missed a chance i had to see someone that means alot to my heart and has made me happy and made dreams that make me feel like i'm with a goddess or an angel. But i'll have to plan another opportunity to find love. Maybe not with her for the time being but with Jess (but shes taken which makes it close to the same situation months down the line) or someone else. 

Well its late and i need to sleep since i have work tomorrow (on Wednesday, to cover the 4 days this week and maybe more to work back the week i had off), night all.

A final of the weekly updates

So, sorry i've not been keeping this updated and missed out last week. But last week was pretty much boring. Except for the two cycle rides. The first one was on friday which i cycled to Gem Bridge. Now this was after i left early for work at 1pm on that day, it was just really quiet.

Then on the Saturday, it was a quite good day at work. Had a nice lunch which was a big cold pasty for £1.30 and space raiders. 

Then after work, i ran home, got changed and was then off to plymouth with my parents to pick my sister up from the rail station. We got there 10 minutes before the train arrived from paddington. Waited on the platform and there she was, i ran over to her and hugged her. We all then walked back to the car, then drove back to Tavi. On the way, we stopped off at morrisons for some shopping for about 1 hour then got home and ordered an indian takeaway and i helped my sister unpack while it was on the way :)

After that she handed all of our presents out. It was a nice thing of her to do. Very nice presents too. I got a really nice touchscreen watch with a shitload of features



Well after that, the saturday was over. And just catching up with her and seeing all the pics she took and things.

Sunday:
Well this was a interesting day, i woke up earlier, about 9ish and then at 10 i headed off to plymouth to join in the GoSkyRide that was happening in plymouth most of the day pretty much. I got dropped off at the Life Centre, then cycled to to the hoe through town and on the way, i brought a ipod touch from CEX. In my family, second hand stuff from either a shop, private or auction is considered new. it was a 32gb 4th gen for £155 which was quite good since i saw one for the same price + £5 P&P off ebay. so i brought that, then cycled over. I'll let the vlog take it from here mostly:

The lunch i had that day i explain but heres a pic just incase you cba to pause the video or missed it.



The sandwich tasted very nice and well worth the £1 donation :)
I got home just after 5pm and then started editing the video, my sister only got up 30 minutes before i got home which is funny. That and i eventually had that nice lamb roast for tea 30 minutes after i got home :)


Then did some more editing and then rendering the vlog in imovie.

Monday:
A nice quiet day at work to be honest, i think it was about 1 or 2 jobs, mostly backups and also advice on various things. Also the other guy at work had a look at my old ipod and it seems that a new logic board is needed. so i might either buy that or sell it for spare parts or keep it as spare parts. Not sure yet. My lunch for that day was some shortbread and a drink. i only had 90p so this is the best i could find :)

That and ran home and then carried on editing and making the images used in the vlog.


So that's whats happened this weekend. Now after going about some thought, i've decided i'm not going to do weekly updates any more. i'm going to blog after anything interesting that i might of done. like cycling to Plymouth or going on a date (pah, if i'm that fucking lucky even thought thats one of my aims for this year :@).

But to be honest, its no luck on the love side of things. When you feel completely ignore by someone thats made your heart happy and other girls i like are in relationships all happy and stuff and it feels like, whats the fucking point. And its basically the waiting game so its all i can do. Best if i do anyway, since i can wait then if any of them becomes single, plan something to win her over and finally have my first relationship, even though in society today, i'm about 5 or 6 years overdue, since of so many fb statuses with 13+ already dating and whining about heartbreak and stuff and i'm just having to imagine that stuff since times are hard.

But i'll keep waiting it out. Since besides i need to save up money for dates and hopefully i'll get paid this week which is a nice extra to save up. since of the fact i've only got £25 on my prepaid after forking out for the £155 ipod touch, plus i got some money i loaned to a friend to recieve in payments which will be nice :)

Anyways, i'll blog here at some point anything important happens, for more up to date know how on my life, you really should follow me on twitter (unless your either hate big people, can't think for yourself and/or very closed minded).
Enjoy your week

Cheers then
Mattie

Not much for a week, eh, well actually it was

Well this week has been .....

Saturday:
It was an alright day. Woke up, i think i fapped over the girl i love, i can't remember. But then got changed, ran to work. Chatted to my boss, told me he wanted one of his laptops reinstalled with Windows 7. So i started that, then my other boss arrived, chatted to him, and got advice on another laptop which had weird issues, like malware or hdd failure signs. But, later on, i brought lunch and it was a nice combo for £2.02.


Well after noming on that, finished a reinstall and restored files back and installed programs that customer had before and installed windows on my bosses laptop. Then i had a customer just at the last 20 minutes and had to  rush helping him since my boss has a wedding anniversary to sort out. So ran home and then relaxed for pretty much the rest of the night and also enjoyed speaking to Bronti and Sasha on fb video chat (which was hardly working at times :@) but then also was doing some mixing in virtual DJ as well as getting macam to work properly on lion



Sunday:
Well this was a very quiet day, woke up around 11ish and then baked some brownies
 and then was pretty much playing RR Unbounded most of the day. No phone call from my sister this time, but i did have a nice Casserole for lunch :)


that was pretty much what happened on sunday. But i did watch iron man and it was good and seems everyone was making chocolate brownies, from Emma <3, to another Emma whos blonde and has got a potiential figure and is nice to me mostly :)

Monday:
Well it was a rainy day, i ran to work after getting changed and having a amazing dream of dating emma but having jess to guide me in the right direction and moves in with me and her and i find out shes jealous of me and her and so gains on pupose and then confesses her love for me. Well it was somthing along those lines.
Anyways got into work and had to cover for the start for an hour or so. It also seems that work wants to get into Model Railway stock and R/C stuff so both me and the other guy that i work with are quite happy about that (well me for the rail, him for the R/C), but looking at the hornby site and Peco site. Then i had lunch which was a small one, £1.36 :)


Then mostly tidying up and getting rid of old PC parts and cardboard from upstairs then having to check if a pc i reinstalled vista on was working since the person was panicing over something that never went wrong sooooo ??

Ran home and then played some PC games then some RR Unbounded and then started typing this up.

Tuesday:
Well i accidently woke up late (11am) although the weather was really bad. Then for a change i decided to play some Point Blank 1, mostly the quest mode. Now theres not much or any footage of this so i might record a playthrough soon . That and my lunch was a nice chicken curry with rice and various extras :)

I did pause at various points to do chours, such as feeding the pond fish and putting the washing in the tumble dryer which was only short, quick jobs.
Then once my dad got back, i finished playing and switched to the PC for a bit, then the PS3.
When i was in bed though, my leg was itching badly and i mean like i couldn't actually get to sleep badly.

Wednesday:
Well this was a casual day, i woke up around 9:30 and then checked e-mails then i played Point Blank Quest mode until about 12 ish then i cooked last nights tea leftovers for lunch with some extra things.

This was outside but was then too bright to watch my Youtube subscriptions. So i went to back to the kitchen and finished lunch and then continued Point Blank Quest until 3:30pm, since i finished it :)
Then i played some RR unbounded and created my first city, of course it had to be based on Plymouth lol.

That took about 4 hours work and then had a bath then went bed.

Thursday:
Well this was a quiet day, woke up, had a nice fantasy which is a exaggerated possibility of meeting emma out on bank holiday (or the sat night) this weekend. Luckily it finished quickly and i was out the door by about 9:35am. Got into work and ended up covering until 12ish then had to cover again until 2ish.  My lunch was quite interesting, only cost me 76p.

But while i was covering, it was nice to be talking to two nice white doves which are staying in one of the corridor's in my work :) I showed them the drawing i was doing for Nicola Boyer on Draw something on my andorid :) They were cute but it was like they were understanding me, or was that just my imagination :)

Then i had two home visits and ran home. The visits were not too hard, just a teaching someone how to backup and burn videos to DVD using Nero Vision 4. And then another home visit to someone to plug their laptop into a Sony TV and he was happy. Then ran home and relaxed and typed this up then had tea and then i went shopping with my mum in morrisons. Funny fact, i was actually not wearing a shirt, only a jumper, but it was still warm. Got various bits and pieces, then got home and unpacked it then watched The Dark Knight, on DVD. Then after that finished i listened to music and was missing Emma (child <3) then went to sleep.

Friday:
Well my eyes were awake about 6:30am. Then fell back to sleep and eyes awoken at 8am then charged my ipod and snoozed then my alarm on my andorid happened. Then had a amazing dream of meeting Emma and Jess this weekend and waking up in emma's bed and then snuggled with her. Then woke up about 9:05am. After that got changed, tweeted to Bridie and then turned the router off then ran to work. When i arrived at 9:40ish, my boss told me about how a firm called Quantum PC Support ripped his mother in law off. £117 and made a hotmail account just to send an e-mail which says they allowed the company to do what they did and charge that amount. So i would SERIOUSLY be aware of any IT company that calls you.  If you go to them first, its ok for them to call you to let you know how your laptop/desktop is getting on.
Then after helping my work pal out with using wireshark to decryp WPA2 so he could learn how its done, i brought something i've  missed the tangy (non cheese) taste of and a bottle of water for £1.49 :)

Then after two other jobs came in (Data from failing HDD recovery and software cleanup), i sorted them out ...well except the HDD was knackered and this was a laptop STILL in WARRANTY.
Then ran home and had a nice fish and chips for tea and then i helped my dad load the caravan. And while doing that, typing this up :)


But tomorrow and Sunday will be interesting, Keep an eye out for a special vlog. A vlog of when i go out to Plymouth on a night out, this will be my 3rd time and i'm unsure on how i'm getting home, what might happen, hopefully i might be able to feed a girl or even make out for the first time. But theres alot that might go wrong. I know i will have to run back from Plymouth to Tavistock. Yes i know i could get a taxi but um ££22 is a bit steep. its £15 if i run too woolwell, so i might considering staying the night at a local B&B then hang around plymouth for the whole day and either go out for bank holiday or stay at a girls house, Bridie, Bianca and Bronti i heard are free so i might offer then company.

But expect to see that vlog on my YT Channel as soon as i can get it edited and rendered, who knows, there might be some naughty scenes and i certainly won't be able to put it on Monetisation.

See Ya